A Mayhem of Blues with Spots of Yellows

Meaning

I don't want to grow,

'Cause it hurts, when everything goes slow;

Carpe Diem-Seize the day,

I wonder, if it's just a catchphrase,

Or it has a point, because if it did,

I was busy faking smiles in the days.

I don't want to grow,

'Cause it kills my heart every time I think;

Carpe Noctem-Seize the night,

I wonder, if it says to be thrilled for being alive,

Or, cry your heart out,

Because if it's the second one,

I am able to perform it very well-

I get to seize the night almost every dawn.

And if it's the first,

I was busy killing myself off.

I don't want to grow,

'Cause it hurts worse, that one more breath I take.