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Chapter 9

My week has been a completely blissful blur, I haven't seen K since Jayden moved all my stuff into his locker, Jayden and I have been making up for lost time, spending every free second either together or on the phone, it is now definitely common knowledge we are dating, I still haven't told my dad, I haven't quite worked out how to, I know I need to do it soon, the right time will present its self, I keep telling myself in a bid to push back the impending conversation. There is a new comfortable routine to my life, splitting my time between Jayden and Bella which works out better than I could have asked for, when Jayden is at soccer training Bella's not work, and when Bella is at work Jayden isn't at soccer training, besides Monday when I just dragged Jayden along to hang out with bella, and tonight  I'm the one with nothing to do, bella is working and Jayden is at soccer training, its odd going from having so much time to yourself, to having it filled up with something you didn't know you needed, then when you have that alone time again it feels completely different to only a week ago, when you were perfectly content with that time, now instead it leave you at a loss for what to do with yourself, that's where I am currently at.

I sit at the coffee shop while Bella works, studying in the corner until and obnoxious group of older ladies become so loud, I can't hear myself think, saying bye to Bella I head over to the oval where Jayden is training, I'm surprised to see the cheer squad out here to they usually train in the gym, I take a seat on the bleachers and grab set out my books, I figure I have enough time for some leisure reading, I set a time so I will have time to finish reading the last few pages in my text book, ahead of my next AP Chem class,  my alarm was ringing right as the cheer quad and soccer practice ended simultaneously, that's convenient I scoff, wondering if K hand brought her squad outside and finished them at the same time deliberately, my thoughts are interrupted as Carter takes a seat next to me
"hey beautiful"
"hey Carter. I think we should stick to Lee" he looks over at me before saying
"only saying what I see" 
"about us seeing each other, I know we said we would get to know one another, but that was before Jayden and I..." I let it linger, he was well aware of what I was saying
"what we cant be friends?"
"I dont think that is what you want Carter"
"you dont know what I want, but I don't understand why it's okay for Jayden to hang out with his ex, yet we cant" he has a point about us only being friends but Jayden and K dont hang out
"they dont hang out anymore" I try to argue unfortunately it sounds more like  a question than the confident statement I was attempting
"I see them together all the time" I'm skeptical of Carter's motives, unsure how much truth there is to what he is saying, until he looks out towards them and I have to swallow my words Jayden's back is towards me, so all I can see is K and she looks pretty happy with herself, I look away, I trust Jayden, I'm sure he will tell me what it is all about later.

Carter grabs my text book and with the pen I brought him the other day, starts writing on the inside of my Chem textbook front cover, finishing he passes it back to me, he looks towards Jayden and K then back to me, with his signature grin he leans down and whisper
"there's no rules" kiss on the cheek he walks off and I feel like I've done the wrong thing, I told him we shouldn't be friends, that's what I would expect Jayden to do with K, only his not, he has been talking to her a while now, knowing I am waiting for him, sure he thought I was going to meet him at the coffee shop, but surely he has seen me sitting here? Carter had, I look down to see what he had written in my text book, Anything is possible, when you have the right person next to you. I'm stumped its so simple yet such a perfect quote, not for me and him, just in general I agree with the quote, the right person should make you feel like anything is possible, that's how I feel about Jayden, it makes me smile and I let go of the frustration I was starting to have over him and K he chose me I have nothing to worry about.

Jayden jogs over and kisses me, since dad is at work and Addison at her coding, we decide to go back to my place, I did tell Jayden I did mind waiting if he wanted to go shower and get changed, he didn't want to waste anytime, it was a bad decision on he's part, sitting in the car the masculine smell of sweat is driving me crazy with desires, this need for Jayden, this is the firsts time since the weekend, and the first time since, I made up my mind, on wanting to experience all my firsts with Jayden, this is the first time will be able to do anything, he offered to go to him house throughout the week, knowing his family and their Italian values you bring her home for dinner, so the family can give you their blessing, then you can come around whenever you like, which I'm not sure I will get off his dad, either way for what I want to do, a reunion with his family might drag up to many heavy memories, ruining the mood, and my resolve has not changed.