"I'm sorry, Shinra. I was a coward. I was so scared for us." She sat besides me and stared at my eyes. "Aren't you scared for us, Shinra? What if we get caught? What if we get hurt again? You! What if you get hurt again?"
While she's staring at my eyes, I looked at the beach. She hold my chin and wiped my tears away.
I smiled, didn't bother to answer her questions. "Shinra.. "
I inhaled a large amount of air to calm myself down. I leaned forward to her and kissed her passionately. She didn't respond and pushed my arms away from her.
"Please, Shinra. Let's stop it."
I shook my head, sign that I disagree to her opinion. "No." I grabbed her wrist and hugged her. "Please baby, no. I don't want you to leave me. Please." I shamelessly begged.
"Let's stop this relationship please! I'm so scared, I don't want to be caught! Stop it, Shinra. You're just hurting yourself!" She said while trying to escape in my arms.
My tears started to flow again, I hugged her tight and approached her left ear to whisper.
"Baby.. I can bear the pain better when you are here besides me."
Nope, everything up there was all fiction. I didn't do that.
I can't do that, she can't do that. We can't do that. How I wish we can be together, but we can't.
I was about to say that. I was about to say everything to her. I was fighting for her, but she don't want me to fight for us.
But what if I'm allowed to say all those things?
What if we can be together?
What if there's no hindrance for our relationship?
What if she still wants me back?
What if..
