The Surprise Guest (Harry Styles)

chapter 37- bye

1.23.2012

I knew Simon had to have been behind this. There was no way this was happening. 

Ever since I got out of the hospital, we've been so happy. Well, aparently I was happy, and he just wasn't. 

"Harry, you can't just leave!" I shout at him, but he keeps packing his suit case.

"I can't stay here, Kate." He say's calmly. How is he so fucking calm?

"You can't leave here either!" I try to lower my voice. I'm trying to calm down. "Not like this." I say more calm. He just keeps packing. Is he even listening to me? "Are you even listening?"

He stops moving and looks to me. "It's kind of hard not to!" He fires back. 

"Why are you leaving Harry?" I ask. I try to hold eye contact, but he keeps looking away. 

"I wish I wasn't." He says under his breath as he packs his last shirt. That's it. Now I know Simon was the reason. That mother fucker. 

"Jesus, Simon put you behind this didn't he?" I raise my voice again. I'm pissed off and there is no way I could even begin to hide it. His silence is the answer to everything. 

He zips up his suitcase and places it on the ground. He finally looks me in the eyes for over 5 seconds. He looks over my face because I'm sure he isn't sure the next time he'll see me again. I don't know when I'll see him again either. "I love you Kate Mandellion." He grasps my cheeks and kisses me. It's not a kiss that I'll remember for a good reason. This kiss is filled with sadness, its like his apology, but I won't take it. 

"No Harry. You're not just leaving. I won't let him rip us apart again." I take the suitcase off of the ground and move it behind me. I'm sure it won't stop him much though. He could easily reach around me and grab it. 

"Darling, I'm the luckiest man in the world to get to love you. I would do anything to continue to love you, but I can't right now. I won't lie and tell you that I want to be here when I don't" Ouch. You've got to be kidding me. He won't even tell me that Simon is the one behind this. He can't even admit it. 

"Fine than leave." I move the suitcase from behind me to infront of me. 

"What?" Did he not expect that? I mean he is the one trying to leave.

"If you mean what you just said than you'll have no problem leaving." If he leaves than I know that I really mean nothing to him. If he leaves I know that the reason he was with me was the use me. I know publicly he was seeing Taylor. I know he's had to stay the night with her a couple of time, but that's our job. We have to do those things for work. I mean I've had to do way worse than "date" someone. 

He stares in my eyes way longer than I expect. What I don't expect is to see him walking toward the door. I stare at him in disbelief. 

So he was playing me this whole time?

I never saw this coming.

"Kate." I look up at him. He was standing with the door open, but there was something stopping him from walking out the door. I just don't think it was me. I think it was the idea of me hating him, but I was fine with the idea of hating him. He hurt me, so in fact I have a reason to hate him. "I really do love you." I scoff

"If you really loved me you wouldn't be standing at the door with a suitcase saying that you love me right now." I don't break eye contact.

"Right." He looks down at his feet, breaking eye contact with me. "goodbye kate." He looks back up at me, before he pulls his suitcase, and himself out the door. He turns his back to me and closes the door behind him. 

I just wish I knew the reason behind him leaving. I know the band is on a little 'break' right now. They had 2 weeks off. They've only been off for 5 days. If he wanted to go see him mom, I would've understood. 

Anne was so kind to me while I was in the hospital. I loved the woman, she raised her son to be respectful and kind. Just sometimes he could be a real arrogant son of a bitch. 

You know what, 

Fuck Harry Styles.