100 days left before 2021! Can you believe it? Because I just can't!
My emotions are so out of place 2x more than yesterday. I did nothing but shout at my husband who did nothing but calm me down. He is not doing anything wrong but I feel like he is. But no! YES! I think I am going crazy fighting myself here.
YOGA and meditation calmed me down.
In times like this, pain is just another place for me and limitless possibilities another. How am I coping up? What am I doing?
I try my best to feel the emotions and breath them out. I acknowledged it and let it flow. It's hard. It's making me breath so hard that I feel like my chest is bursting. Everything feels like a rising magma. A volcano waiting to erupt.
After I let it flow, I go into saying sorry to my husband. I feel like this is one of the things that changed. I used to not say sorry. Then I used to say sorry days or weeks after. To be able to say so right now just hours after my outburst is something new. I wish one day, I could learn not to react right away on things and take a pause first. :)
