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Chapter 21 - Collapse

I didn't know what I was doing, all I knew was that I had to get away from Anton. Out of the studio and away from everything as fast as I could. To escape from anything happening, I couldn't handle with my feelings for Anton right now.

I pushed the main door, swinging it violently open and running past the black car we had come to the studio in. I didn't care if I had to run home.

"Janelle! Where are you going?" Anton yelled at me in front of the car.

I refused to answer and went past the building, down the street to my house without any further word from him. I stopped to take off my heels and continued to run home. I was panicking, I didn't know what would happen.

I reached my building and ran up my stairs to my front door. I was startled to find someone huddling beside my door, that I stopped in my tracks to investigate who it was. I could recognize that mess of brown hair from anywhere.

"Aaron?!" I asked loudly causing his head to lift from the crouched position he was in.

"Jan," Aaron breathed in relief, immediately getting up and throwing his arms around me. "I'm so sorry," he confessed hugging me tightly.

I was still shocked, but I put my hand on his back accepting his hug. I had just kissed Anton. There was a million things running through my mind. Seeing Aaron was the last thing, and all I wanted to do was be alone and think.

"Aaron," I cried, the only thing to escape my lips.

"Janelle, I waited here all night. I never want to lose you. I'm so sorry I said those horrible things to you in the car," He quickly spoke to me as he leaned out to look me straight in the eye.

"Aaron," I began to say slowly, trying to get his attention.

"I don't know what got into me. I was just trying to protect you. I was jealous. Janelle, I'm so sor-"

"Aaron!" I interjected again beginning to sob.

He abruptly stopped talking giving me a confused expression.

"I-" I began to say, "I-" I kissed Anton.

He continued to look at me wondering what was on my mind.

"It's okay."

A small relieved smile grew on his face before he hugged me tightly again, "Janelle, I love you so much. You're the last thing I want to lose."

I stood in his hug not knowing what to do. I was furious with myself. I couldn't bring myself to tell him the truth. I was a horrible person.

"Janelle!" A familiar voice called from below us.

My heart stopped when Anton came running up my stairs to find Aaron and I holding each other. He looked at me surprised, then grew a blank expression when he realized.

"You forgot your phone " he told me, not knowing what else to say.

I stared at him back. I was empty. I felt horrible. I was horrible.

"It's in the car," he stared straight into my eyes.

I nodded without saying a word and rubbed Aaron's arm before I went down to the car to get my "phone."

"I'm sorry, Anton." I began hollowly.

"So am I, Janelle," he shot, before getting into the car and driving off.

Trying to hold back my tears, I watched as his car drove away. I was horrible for leading him on.

"Jan," Aaron called me from the stairs.

"Be right up," I answered trying to make it sound like I wasn't about to cry.

I stood in the parking lot, trying to clear my head. I had to be alone to just think. I was unfulfilled with myself, I felt horrible.

"Aaron," I called still not moving, "I have to be alone."

I heard his footsteps walk down the stairs and walk up behind me, "What happened?"

"I'm sorry," I said leaving him and going up to my door again, shutting it behind me.