Astra

Chapter 14

Chapter 14:Letters

Warning: Words.Suicidal.

Nagising ako't tinignan ko ang oras
It's already 10:00 am.
Sheez
I haven't eaten my breakfast yet.
Tumayo na ko't nagluto para sa Brunch ko.

Inaantay ko nalang Maging 12:00 o'clock.
After kong magluto
Nahiga muna ako.
And I take a picture.
This will be my last.

Nang mag 12 na ,
Kumain na ko
Pagkatapos ko ay
Hinugasan ko na ang mga pinagkainan ko.

Inayos ko ang aking condo.
At nang maayos ko na, Agad na kong naligo at after that.
Naligo na ko't nahiga.
Let me sleep for a while.

Maya maya pa'y nagising ako mga bandang 1:00

Kumuha ako ng special paper at
Nagsimulang gumawa ng Letters.

Ang inuna na ko ay si Zander

To: My Future Engineer

Hi Zander, First of All, I want to say this to you.
Thank you for being a good cousin to me, thank you for making me feel happy for all the times that I'm Down.
You and our friends make me realize what friends are.
Please, I don't want to see you crying because of me.
Don't blame yourself on whatever happens.
Continue making them happy.You have a good
heart Zander.
Misty,she likes you Zander.
Don't hurt her please. And someday, you'll find your true love. Always remember that True love can wait.    

And if ever you misses me,
Just look up in the sky and and you'll see me,
I'll twinkle so Bright. From the skies,
I'll watch,guide and protect you at all cost.
This is the only promise that I can Grant for myself.
To become a Star.
Sorry for not seeing me marching and wearing a toga on our graduation. And you'll never see me wearing my Pediatrician Cardiologist Uniform.
But I'll see you wearing your uniform,
I'll miss you my engineer.
See you when the time comes.

Your Forever Star,
Astra. 

To: My Future Architect

Hi Amber, How's your day?hope your fine.
First of all , I want to say thank you for being a good ate and a friend at me.
Thank you for making me feel a Euphoric feeling when a times of Sadness hits me.
Thank you for being my crying shoulders all of you.
You're the best.
Don't be sad when you already knows it.
But be Happy for me because I'm now free.

You may not see me wearing my Pediatrician Cardiologist Uniform but I'm gonna see you wearing your uniform in being a Architect.
If you feel tired, just look at in the skies and you'll see me twinkling,
I'll be watching,guiding and Protecting you at all cost.
I'll miss you my Architect.
See you when the time comes.

Your Forever Star,
Astra. 

To: My Future Attorney

Hi August, I hope you're doing fine.
First of a, I want to say thank you for being a good friend and A sister at the same time to me.
Thank you for making me feel some bliss when the negative emotion hits me.
Thank you to all of you for not giving up on me.
I'll never forget all of you.

You're not able to see me wearing my Pediatrician Cardiologist Uniform, But I'm able to see you wearing your uniform being an attorney and watching you Protecting and staying at the right side.
Giving a Justice for those people who needs it.
I'm so proud of you,all of you

If someday,you need me
Just look at in the sky and I'll be twinkling so bright.
I'll miss you my Attorney.
See you when the time comes.

Your Forever Star,
Astra. 

To: My Future Model
Hi Maika, Something bothering you
hope you feel happy.
First of all, I want to thank you for being a Good ate and at the same time you're a good friend.

Thank you for making me realize that true friends are helping one another, ready to listen to your dramas in life without judgement.
Y

ou have a good heart and
I can sense that someone day you'll reach your dream.

You can't see me wearing my Pediatrician Cardiologist Uniform but I'll see you modeling everything.
I'm so proud at you.

If you feel alone,
Just look at in the sky and I'll twinkling so bright.
I'll miss you my Model.
See you when the time comes.

Your Forever Star,
Astra. 

(Mitchieeees i short cut natin ha?some letters are just the same,so bale I'll write their profession nalang for you to know ok? God bless)

I also write for Cassie

Cassie is My Future Flight Attendant
I also write for Misty
Our Future Attorney too
I also write for Alisha
Our Future Teacher
I aslo write for Christel,Steven and Akiela
Our future Accountant, Attorney and Teacher

Maya maya pa'y dumating na ung si messenger boy
Kinuha ko ung mga sulat.
"Bukas ko na maiibibigay ito,ok lang ba?"sambit nya
"Oo naman,pagod ka na rin eh"sabi ko.
Tumango sya't nagpaalam na....

.....

It's already dinner.
Nagkaluto na ko't naka kain na din and nahugasan ko na rin lahat.

Nahiga ako
Mag 3 days nang hindi ako nagpaparamdam haha

Naka tunganga lang ako
Nang biglang

"Astra! Napaka walang kwenta mong anak!Ambobo mo!"
"Alam mo?Mas maganda mamatay ka nalang!"
"Antanga tanga mo! Bwisit ka!walang kwenta!Gago! Bobo! Tanga Tanga!"

Napaiyak na Lang ako
"Tama naaa!oo na! Ako na yan! Ako na lahat yan!"sabi ko't

Pero Hindi pa rin ito tumitigil.

Tila wala na ko sa sarili ko
Nakakita ako ng lubid.
Agad kong itinali sa may kahoy sa itaas.
At gumawa ng konting bilog para sa pagsabitan ng aking leeg.

Eto ung palaging lumalabas saking isipan.

Natauhan ako ng konti,

"What the hell?no no no"sabi ko

Ngunit...
"Alam mo?! Mas Maganda kapag nawala ka  nalang! Mamatay ka nalang!"

Lahat ng sakit back then,
Bumalik,
The Pain and the Madness

I can't take it anymore
I'm tired.
I'm already giving up.
I committed Suicide.

End of Chapter 14:

Some people chose to Disappear,  and Committed Suicide Because they want to escape from pain.

Again Mitchieeees,

I wanna inform you that this story is very sensitive, And I'm not pushing you to do what have you read in this story.
But, in this story there's a lesson.
So, I hope you get it.
Goodluck reading my babies,
Keep safe and God bless