Fatal Love (COMPLETED)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Shin Hoseok's Point of View

I saw Chaerin walking so I decided to follow her. She must've been doing her punishment right now. Ang kulit naman kasi ng isang 'yon.

She was sweeping the school grounds grumpily. I wanted to help her kahit na alam kong tatanggihan niya lang ako at papaalisin kaya naman tumabi muna ako at pinagmasdan siya.

I sometimes wonder what did I like about her? She's talkative. Walang inaatrasan kasi matapang daw siya. She good at hiding her emotions. Hindi naman talaga siya matapang, nagtatapang tapangan lang. She's just afraid of getting stomped on.

I wanted to kiss her when I saw a chance but I stopped my self. No, I won't take advantage of her. She might get hurt by my actions.

I'm not dense and most especially I'm not dumb just stupid. It's different, right? Kung parehas man ng ibig sabihin, bahala na!

Me, Chaerin and Shownu, kaming tatlo parang naglalaro ng patintero. Unang mataya, talo. Unang bumigay, talo. Tanga tangahan ata ang laro namin.

Parang gago lang.

I'm aware that our leader likes Chaerin. I'm waiting for him to make a move pero mababato na si Chaerin kakahintay sa kanya! Anak ng tupa!

Si Rin, she knows that I like her, very much yet she just took it as a compliment. Hinayaan ko at least nasabi ko sa kanya 'yong nararamdaman ko. Friendzone man, nakaamin naman.

Ang hina ng leader namin pagdating sa babae!

Kung tatanungin niyo, kung nasasaktan ba ako o hindi. Syempre masakit. Panigurado akong alam niyo ang pakiramdam na may gustong iba 'yong gusto mo. Sakit 'di ba?

Pero pipilitin mong maging masaya para sa kanya kahit na hindi ka na makangiti sa sobrang sakit.

But no, tatlo kaming nasasaktan. Parang tanga lang talaga.

Son Hyunwoo naman kasi ayaw pang umamin. Alam ko naman na. Ang pangit dahil pareho kami ng type, mas pangit kasi 'di ako gusto. Ampucha.

I don't want to ruin the group's reputation because of one girl. Mahal ko ang kagrupo ko. Shownu has been with me through my ups and downs and I won't let him sink.

Wala na akong pag asa, but a little bit inside of me was still hoping that we could be together.

I was thinking of leaving the group. I'm willing to sacrifice for anything. That girl is my downfall, I wanted to distance myself to her but I can't. It could ruin every thing.

I wanted to stay with them forever. Pero parang wala namang forever. I'll stay, hanggang sa makakaya ko.

"Maganda ka pa rin naman kahit anong suot mo. Kung nag pajama ka baka mag handa ako ng pajama party," I laughed at my own idea. She laughed pero may kasamang hampas. Sadista. Hindi lang pisikal ang pananakit pati emosyonal.

If I told her to wear a white dress, would she wear it? Para diretso kami sa simbahan. Biro lang.

"Baliw,"

"Baliw sa'yo!" Baliw na baliw sayo, Chaerin. Ikaw naman baliw sa kanya. Can't we just go to the mental hospital to cure this crazy madness?

"Sapak gusto mo?!"

"I want your love,"  I really do. Kung nahihingi lang 'yon sa'yo at kusa mong ibibigay.

"Ang corny mo talaga kahit kailan!"

I sighed when I remembered that time. Lugi talaga ako kahit kailan. Ang unfair pero walang fair sa mundo.

"Here," I said when I got back. I bought some foods for us. She quickly took a bite the moment she grabbed the snack. She must've been starving! Poor baby.

"Hey, kain ka na din," sabi niya sa'kin habang patuloy pa rin sa pagkain. Cute.

"Uubusin ko 'tong lahat sige ka!" she warned but I remained calm and smiled at her. She looks so carefree.

"Ang creepy mo ha! Kain ka na rin kasi!"  she said. She brought a slice of pizza infront of my mouth, I did not hesitate to take a bite from it. It's from her why hesitate?

While eating, her mood changed. May naalala na naman siguro siya.

"Gutom ka pa? Bibili pa ako," I offered to lessen the tension but she shook her head.

"No, busog na ako. Ang dami ko nga nakain! Kapag ako hindi nakatakbo ng maayos isusumbong kita sa senior ko!" mas cute ka naman kapag tumaba ka.

"Crush ako noong senior niyo kaya wala kang magagawa baka ikaw pa ang parusahan no'n," I retorted.

"Ikaw na lang ata walang gusto sa'kin e," I added, which make her grimaced.

"Ang pangit ng reaksyon mo ha. Ganoon mo ba kaayaw sa'kin?"  sabi ko pa.

"May sinabi ba ako? Judgmental ka masyado!"  I laughed at her. I can only afford to laugh right now, even though I'm hurting.

"Tara na nga, doon tayo!" she pointed the roller coaster.

Sabi na nga ba e! Hindi niya talaga papalampasin 'yon! Napalunok ako sa kinatatayuan ko.

"Parang tanga, ang taas niyan e," reklamo ko. Baka kapag nahulog ako diyan, mabawasan ng gwapo sa mundo.

"Bumababa naman iyan, kaya nga roller coaster ang tawag." pagdadahilan niya. Ang cute lang.

"Tumataas pa rin 'yan. Chaerin naman! Ayoko diyan kahit doon na lang ako sa carousel tapos ikaw na lang sumakay diyan." sabi ko. I really tried to convince her but I found myself getting dragged by her. Oh, man.

We were close in line so it's really fast. Nakakainis baka kasi kaonti lang ang tao ngayon? Kung mahaba ang pila baka kanina pa kami umalis dahil sa sobrang mainipin ni Chaerin.

She didn't let go of my hand. Nakahawak pa rin siya. Kahit paaano nakaramdam ako ng ginhawa. I saw her looked at me.

"I know you're scared but I'm here. Don't you trust me? It's time for you to conquer your fears, with me." she held my hand as tight as she can. She smiled when she felt than I'm holding her back.

Pakiramdam ko tatangayin ang kaluluwa ko. Masyado akong tense. But I kept thinking that she's here beside me.

"Hawak ka lang, 'di kita bibitawan." that's the last sentence she said before taking off from the platform.

How I wish you will keep your promise. You said you won't let go...

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