Abducted by the RFA! (Mystic Messenger Diaries)

Chapter 22: Guilt and Shame

Dhina's Entry #13

Henlo... Dhina here. Gosh, I can't stop thinking about Jumin's reaction. Kinausap kasi ako ni Jumin about sa mga nalalaman ko, pero mukhang hindi siya natuwa sa mga narinig niya.

"Seems like by saying you know many things about us, it is with respect to our emotions, correct?" tanong sa akin ni Jumin.

"Yes." sagot ko naman sa kanya.

"Alright." Tapos tumayo na siya sa kinauupuan niya. "Thank you for the information, Dhina. I must get going now." paalam niya sa akin.

Dali-dali rin akong tumayo and I replied, "Y--you're welcome, Jumin! I--I'm sorry..."

"Sorry? No, you don't have to apologize. Anyways, I shall conclude our meeting. Thank you for your time. Please excuse me." nag bow siya sa akin at umalis agad.

Hindi ko mapigilang mag-overthink na hindi ko pala dapat sinabi yung huling part about kay Elizabeth, or at least dinahan-dahan ko man lang. It was a big mistake on my part. I felt so guilty and ashamed of myself na napaupo nalang ako. Suddenly, biglang dumating si Yoosung.

"(*yawn) Aaahh~! Bakit kaya nakakagutom maglaro ng LOLOL? Hmmm? Ehh? Dhina? Okay ka lang? May masakit ba sayo?" tanong niya sa akin.

"O--oh, Yoosung! Ahmm, no. Okay lang ako, thanks for asking."

"Hmmm? Sure?"

"Yup yup! Uhh, may mga biscuits yata dun sa cabinet if you want some."

"Oooh! Perfect!! Sana may gatas din sa ref!" nagliwanag bigla ang mga mata ni Yoosung. "Namiss ko mag dip ng cookies sa gatas!" dagdag niya.

"Hahaha, ako rin!" I joined in his excitement.

"Hmmm? Dhina--?!"

"H--huh?" nagulat nalang ako pumapatak na yung luha ko. Immediately, pinunasan ko yung tears ko and as I opened my eyes, nakita ko si Yoosung, ang lapit niya sa akin and his eyes express great worry.

"H--huuyy, okay ka lang ba talaga?" biglang namula yung ilong ni Yoosung. "Huyy, wag kang umiyak, naiiyak din akooo!" at lumuha na rin siya.

Tumayo ako at saka yumuko. "I--I'm sorry!!" I couldn't stop myself from crying.

"Haaa? Bakit? Bakit ka nags-sorry? Huuyy! Dhina!! What's happening?!"

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry for playing the game! Hindi ko alam na totoo pala lahat ng nakalagay don... I'm really sorry I messed you guys up!"

"Halaa! Dhina! Don't say that! You're not messing up anyone! Wala kang kasalanan, Dhina, you know that!"

"No... I'm so so sorry. I'm causing a lot of trouble! Who knows? Baka gamitin pa ako ng Mint Eye para ipahamak kayo!" I couldn't stop overthinking.

"Dhina! Snap out of it! You're not putting anyone in danger! Nandito si Seven ohh! Map-protektahan niya tayo! Please stop crying, I'm crying na rin!"

"Yoosung, why are you crying you big bab-- Dhina?!" pumasok din si Zen sa loob ng kitchen. "O--oy?! Ano nangyari sa inyong dalawa?! Dhina! Bakit ka umiiyak?!"

"Zen... Bigla nalang siyang nagkaganyann... Sorry siya nang sorry..."

"Huh? Bakit? Dhina? Anong nangyari? Sabihin mo sakin!"

"I--I... I'm just so sorr--"

"No! 'Wag kang magsorry. Teka. Kasama mo si Jumin dito kanina diba? May sinabi ba siya sayo? Yung trust fund jerk talaga na yon! Teka ah--" I held Zen's hand just before siya makahakbang.

"Zen, no... Walang kasalanan si Jumin..." I cleared out.

"So bakit ka nga umiiyak?"

"Because I feel guilty! I'm sorry for causing so much commotion... Hindi ko talaga alam..."

"Oh for Pete's sake!" Hinila ako ni Zen at saka ako niyakap. "Tumahan ka na. Wala kang kasalanan, okay? Tahan na..."

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..."

"Ssh, who cares kung alam mo lahat ng sikreto namin. To me, you are still a princess na dapat protektahan ng kanyang knight in shining armour." then he tapped my back. When I opened my eyes, wala na si Yoosung.

"Wala kang kasalanan, okay? Biktima ka rin dito. Alam kong mahirap, pero nandito na tayo. Sa totoo lang, you don't feel like a stranger to me. Parang matagal na kitang kilala." then he let me go. "Di ko ma-explain, but everything about you, parang familiar ehh. Parang kilalang-kilala ka na ng puso ko. At sabi niya, hindi ka masamang tao."

Nilagay niya yung kamay niya sa ulo ko saka siya ngumiti. "Pag narinig ulit kitang nagsorry, bubugbugin ko na yung huling nakausap mo! Okay?! Hahaha!"

"Dhina? Dhina? Are you okay? Oh, Zen?" pumasok na rin si Jaehee sa kitchen na para bang tumakbo siya papunta dito.

"Ah! Jaehee! Okay na ang lahat. Okay na si Dhina. Diba, Dhina?"

"Y--yes. Thank you Zen. Thank you Jaehee." I bowed to show my utmost gratitude.

"I--I see. I'm very happy to hear that." sagot naman ni Jaehee na parang nabunutan ng tinik ang kanyang puso. "Come with me, Dhina. Magpahinga ka na. I'll take it from here, Zen." tuloy naman niya.

"Okay! Thank you, Jaehee!"

"Oh, I did not expect a gratitude. I am only caring for her as our... guest?"

"Kahit na, you're still showing concern sa kanya."

"T--thank you. Well then, Dhina, let's go?"

"Okay... Thank you so much, Zen...!" at nginitian ako ni Zen.