8 months pregnant and still taking care of my fucking self, I said to Jamie as I walked out my office.
Juan was a fuck up, he wanted me to be with him but didn't want to be faithful, like dude how do you put a gun to a bitch that you say you love and force her to be with you and you got other bitches all on you? The shit didn't sound right at all.
Bitch I'm not calling you to talk about you and him.
I'm calling you because he was just over here and I think that nigga on something.
I wouldn't let the kids go with him the nigga seem off. He curse me out so bad, I know the nigga on something, she said as I get into my newly purchased Audi Q5.
Umm I don't know I haven't seen him in a week or two. We barely talk and I'm okay with that but I'll stop by the shop to see what's up, I said .
Okay just be careful that fool is stupid.
Not really wanting to see him, so I called him.
Hello? What? (Him)
Umm I was just calling to see did you pay for Amir
school this month? (Me)
You know I paid for his school, don't I always pay for his schooling?( him)
Umm yeah but I just wanted to make sure because there was no receipt in his bag Juan(me)
Okay yeah it's paid for, but you better stop playing with me. Why nobody on my side got the invitation to OUR baby shower? (Juan)
Juan I told you I wasn't having a baby shower for him, I told you that(me)
That's stupid, why ? Because he's a junior? That's fucked up , you evil as fuck(him)
I'm not, but if you feel like that you can plan a baby shower, my momma not talking to me and both my siblings are out of the state. So I wasn't gonna do nothing. We got everything we need for him already, but if you want to have one I'll show up but I am not planning nothing (me)
"Laughing" okay girl I'll talked to later(him)
Before I could say okay I was hearing the dial tone. Yeah he was definitely acting stupid.
After talking to him I called Jamie back. We talked for about thirty mins before I pulled up to her to get all four kids.
She had her own thing going on, she was dating this dude name Murray from Ga. it was long distance and she was back and forward with him, I thought it was scary but she loved it.
Taking a bath and feeding the kids, I was beyond ready to get in my bed. Turning the cameras and alarms on I put the dogs in their cage.
It's 9 pm so our kids was already in bed, Ayana was the first one out then the other went shortly after her.
Laying in my bed I read a script from the Bible almost every night.
3 :32 a.m
Hearing my phone ring I got up to pee.
Hello? ( me)
I'm sorry Ayah, Juan is over her tripping hard and is going to get arrested can you please come please? (Nene)
Umm what's up? What happen (me)
Girl he high on them pills and acting stupid , him and KO just fought and they fucked the house up so bad(nene)
Wow , umm I guess I'll be there(me)
Not really wanting to see him I just had to because I didn't want him going to jail . Fuck I thought as I got up.
4:10 a.m
Standing in front of him he was tripping.
Best friend my ass, tell the truth nigga, he yelled as KO walked up.
Man this nigga high as fuck on the mollies sis, he talking about he heard me flirt with Nene.
Man that's my little sister to nigga, I don't even look at her like that. I got a whole bitch, why would you do that? KO yelled as Lee and two dudes I ain't never seen held them apart.
Come on, come on let's go, I said to him pushing him towards my car. I hated him and KO fighting but I knew both was crazy and played with guns so I just wanted to keep him alive and out of prison.
No you are so not for me, you hate me remember? He yells making the baby in me kick so hard because he had scared the shit out of both of us.
You're making him upset, I cooed as tears just dropped from my eyes.
I don't want to go with you, this my house he said walking away from the house.
Following behind him, he just talked shit, telling me how he loved me and I left him and telling me I was stupid for leaving him and trying to be better then him, he told me I was a hoe and just like him once, that shit hurt so bad because that's always the thing he say when he's upset with me and I just don't know why I keep coming back to him.
Why I keep having kids from someone who is gonna bring my past up every time we get into it.
Stop fucking following me, he turns and scream in my face . Take your bitch ass home, he yelled as I just looked at him and cry.
I knew he was on something besides weed because once upon of time he wouldn't dare scream or curse at me no matter how fucked up or mad he was.
Feeling my body getting to upset I just cried and turned around to leave. He continues to walk and talk shit.
I'm assuming he's walking the opposite direction, turning to see if I see him still because he had stop talking , I turn to see him maybe 5 feet from me.
Looking at him, he looked so bad.
Stopping to see if he was okay because he had stop talking shit.
I'm sorry he said as he placed his hands on my huge belly.
It was like a angel came over him and he realize the shit he was saying wasn't right.
Can you come home with me? I have to check on the kids, I cooed still crying.
Agreeing he walked me to the car all quiet and shit.
7 a.m
I couldn't sleep at all, he took a cold shower in my bedroom and was laying next to me knocked out. I knew he was on something because the dick wouldn't even get hard not that we needed to be fucking but the shit didn't .
Mommy that's my daddy? Amir cooed climbing in the bed with me. Yes I whispered trying not to wake his crazy ass. Moving over to allow him to get in the bed Ayana was already in the bed laying on his chest.
He went and got her about a hour ago.
Laying on his arm the kids really loved their daddy. He was a good daddy to all for of them.
What the hell was this bitch on?
