The Rueful and Hopeful

You don't know me

I pretend to be a lot
Full of ideas
Self-centered
Bubbling with energy
Confident
But am I?
I don't know whether I am or not
You believe what you see on top
You say I don't doubt myself
But do you know me?
No one knows the real me
The one
I hide
The one
I pretend
I doubt myself more than you
You don't know it
And you never will
Get to know me
Perhaps I'll let you in
But till then
Don't spread rumors
I am not what you think I am
And I will not be
Don't talk about me
Till you don't know what I think
Inside
And the things
I hide
You say I don't care
But you don't know me
You say I am as proud as a peacock
Too selfish
Unkind
Don't carish
Not humble
But you don't know me
Just because I don't show it
Doesn't mean I am not
You don't know me
And you never will
I am not what you think I am
And I will not be
You think it all
Because you don't know me

A recent excerpt from For I pity them