Happy birthday honeyy!!!♡ we arrived to the end, you had a small trip through my thoughts~ hope you enjoyed it!
I wanted to do this because this year was actually really hard for me too and writing helps me a little. So I wrote all what I could here! Mostly of them are sad things so I'm sorry :( I'll write you lovely things in this one♡
Wish you can enjoy your birthday today♡. If I'm with you hope I'm hugging you and calming you. If I'm not, it's because you're working hard right now and we'll probably see each other soon! And I'm going to kill you with hugs♡.
These letters have really strong mood swings so maybe that's why they're a little complicated to understand but hope you liked them♡
Now yes... where should I start?
I love you more than what I can explain, more than what you ever imagined. There's no way to explain it, i just do it.
I'm not an "I love you" person because it's so hard for me to say it naturally but with you I just need to say it. I say it naturally but meaning it a lot. I mean every word I say. I prefer more not saying something than saying it but not meaning it.
It's so complicated. Sometimes I'm all day saying I love you (because I do, of course) but other times I don't say it a lot and it isn't because I don't want, it's because I guess is too much and I often feel that i annoy a lot. But i really want to say it every day.
I love you to the point I can't live without you. You said it, it's scary, really scary because I know there's the option for you to find someone better than me, if I'm literally dust. For other side, I wouldn't have to care because it's literally your life and you can do what you want with it. So that's why it's just an egotistical thought.
But as you still with me, (I still with you) I'm really grateful. I always say it and it's because I just can't believe it. You're literally smarter and we had this age difference that I wonder why you want to be with me. You're surrounded by smart and genius people so why would you? Whatever it's your answer, I want to say thank you and I want to answer the same question.
Why do I love you? There's no explanation or I don't find the words to explain it. But I really love you, I love you with all my heart and I can say it loud. You're special, different and you have something that makes me be your soulmate. I still don't knowing what is it. But you have it and it makes me want to be just with you. You're so beautiful, kind, cute... just human perfection.
I really can't believe I had the beautiful opportunity to be your soulmate because you're hundreds of times better than me and you have a lot of good objectives in life.
I was reading our old letters and it's beautiful how we were meeting each other, we didn't think this French friendship will become every day stronger but it did! We're a step higher and we're soulmates now. It's really beautiful, I think it's really beautiful because I'm a weird cold person but with you I'm all the opposite. With you I'm all what I've never thought I'd be. I need to give you all my love. Yes, I'm shy but I really want and I get so sad when I can't:(.
We have a beautiful soulmates confidence, I love it like this. And as I said in one of the letters, I'd really like to know more and more about you~ I'm a curious butterfly♡.
You know all bubu, (I love the nickname bubu by the way) you know I love you with all my soul, you know I'll be by your side until you get tired of me, you know I'll be here to hold your hand and hug you all the times you need it. You know you don't annoy me, I love hearing you when you tell me things. You know I admire you so much, you know my heart owns you. You know a lot of things bubu and I don't mind saying them all the times is necessary. I can't explain how much I love you but i can show it.
"I love you" is a new word for me, i still learning how to use it but all I know is that I love you so much. I don't need anyone else because you're my universe, my reason to exist. People tried entering to my life but they aren't you, they don't know me well and honestly I don't want them to know me. I just want you. I don't know why, I just want you to be with me.
You're my angel, my baby, my munny, my soulmate, my universe, the most shining star, my cutiepie, my best friend, my French friend, my special person, the only one, my bubu, my family, my boyfriend for those people who see me too much with the phone, the person who saved me from dying. You're literally all and I can't be more grateful. You're so important for me honey.
I'm the happiest when I'm with you because I can be myself without feeling scared. I'm the happiest because you understand me and support me with all. I'm really happy for all what you did for me, I don't have enough thanks. I still don't knowing why you choose me every time bubu but let me tell you I'm so grateful for it and I'll never never leave you alone.
We have each other to fight in this dark world, hope this can last forever♡ we aren't scared anymore so we're ready to fight. Do you want to come with me bubu? I don't promise it'll be easy but It'll be the most beautiful way you ever chose.
Or well... I don't know that either, but we can try, we can try to be happy♡ we can make our own way to happiness and I'll be by your side helping you with all!
♡.
Now let me be me and use my emojis🥺🥺❤ I'm just so happy to have you🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and I don't know what would I do without you🐇🐾
I wrote all the letters trying to be serious but I really wanted to use a lot of hearts❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ because I really love you so much🥺👉🏻👈🏻
Maybe today won't be the happiest day but I'll try to make you smile all what I can😄 you're so precious honeybun🥺🥺🧸 I want you with me forever💫🖐🏻
Can i hold your hand forever?🖐🏻 Can I stay with you forever?🐇🌹 I don't think I'll find happiness in other place.
I'll be seeing you really soon and I'm going to give you A LOT OF LOVE💜🌌
You're the best that ever happened in my sad life honey. This year was a shit but I'm grateful with it for letting me support you and give you my love when you needed it.
I'm imperfect bubu, I don't know how some things works but I still doing my best because I HAVE YOU WITH ME🥺🥺🥺🥺❤ that's a really wonderful thing and I can't believe I'm this lucky.
I'm sorry for all the bad things I've done. I'm so far away of being perfect but I promise for you I'll keep working and giving you every day more love🐇❤
I love you so much, I can't explain it and sometimes I can't say it but hope you can still knowing it anyways🥺💖 I'm a 바보 and it's so difficult for me but never forget I love you so much honey, i love you too much🥺💜 it's unbelievable. I don't know what to do for you to know it. But believe me I do love you so much🐇🦋
