Unspoken Words

Part-1

Anju.....

Do you think it is easy for me to let you go?

Do you think I have moved on from your feelings?

Do you think I just gave up on you without trying?

No Anju. You really don't know what I'm going through. You know I planned so many things for us. But it all collapsed just like a building broke down due to tsunami. You know i'm not interested in software side but for you , to get you i'm in it. I thought with good job i can ask your hand for marriage. I thought in our so called modern society parents will think about the person habits, qualities for their children. But i forgot that they're in modern society for name sake but their mindset, their way of thinking was still at their times. I thought my parents will respect my opinion. They just ignored my feelings for you and also said NO for the marriage with u. I asked  reason for saying no without knowing u but they just struck at your caste. They said it's the only reason. First time i felt helpless in my life ....

Can you imagine they didn't even try to know about you , their son's feelings. I tried many ways to convince them but everything went in vain. I want them to accept you wholeheartedly and to treat you like a daughter not as a daughter-in-law. But seeing my parents way of thinking i'm damn sure it won't happen. Meanwhile your parents are seeing matches for you. I don't  know what to do , i can't assure you that  i will take you with me .I'm in dilemma. I can't let u go but i can't make u mine when i'm struck at first step. I don't want you to struck like me. I want you to be happy always. You deserve more happiness. U will always be in my prayers. So, i told you to move on, i know you love me but i don't have any option to hold you back. Till today i can't forget your teared full face when i said to move on. I just pray to god that no one should be in my position. I made you to say okay for the marriage but u don't know how much i tried not to cry when i m making you to say okay. Now you're getting married. I wanted to come to your marriage , to say to your husband "you're so lucky to get her" but u know i don't have that much guts to see you with someone else.

You don't know how i cried. Everyone will says boys shouldn't cry. Will pain differ based on gender? I know i took a promise from you that "You should be happy with that person". Because i know about you . You will cry just like me & you won't even try to forget me. For your sake , for your happiness, i took that prom. When you asked me how can you live without me , how can you forget me. I said time will heal me and you. Up to know i didn't forget your words "will time can erase our memories, will time can erase me in u and u in me: it just make us to cope up with pain". I know about you , your way of thinking but i can't do anything.

Sorry my love, loosing you is like loosing a part in my body. I can't forget u and our memories can make me alive. Till my heart beats stopping you will be in my heart. Love you so much anjuu...

I don't know how my life going to be but I have to make sure that you will be happy with that person at some time. I know our memories will make you feel sad but remember one thing when we have so many things on your plate to deal with them you don't have time to think about that memories. I hope you understand my point even though u misunderstand me , one day you understand me.

Your's Arjun.

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