Major In Me

Chapter 7

Chapter 7: Wrecking Dreams

Killa's P. O. V.

I get it, I fucked up, but come on, I have to keep my reputation up or else I would be just like these other gang leaders who fell in love and got their lover killed. I don't want that, I don't want to be painted as weak, because I'm not weak. If Imogen can't accept that mentality then she doesn't deserve me and she can go find somebody else, plain and simple. To top it all off, I don't want her getting hurt because of my stupid self. One thing though, she is great in bed. I just don't want my boys mad at me though, because if they're mad, anything we do will be affected and it could cause one of our lives. I got up off the sofa turning the television off with it. I heard a scream and rushed to the room only to see Imogen there with sweat and hot tears running down her face. What is wrong with this chick and always crying? I walked over to her bed sitting on it which in return she moved over to the window. Why is she trying to avoid me when I'm trying to help her?

"What was it?"
"Do your friends hate me?"
"Ik Taze don't really like you, but the others I wouldn't think they do,"
"Do you think I'm a snitch?"
"No, if you were I would've already killed you because you would be a threat to me and my gang,"
She sniffed then turned to look at me,
"Why'd you do it?"
"Do what Gen?"
"Why'd you fuck someone else right infront of me then acted oblivious to it?"
"I have a reputation to protect Gen, and I also have you to protect, I can't have you in harm's way,"
"I am in harm's way if you keep breaking my heart every fucking minute you jack ass," she hit me on my chest and was about to do it again but I held her hand and pulled her to my chest. She looked so broken and it made me feel like shit but I just couldn't let her see that.

"Get yourself together Gen,"
She looked up at me like I was crazy and I guess I was for saying that, but she has to get stronger than that, I don't want no weak wife. So if she wanna reach that far with me she better toughen up and quickly.

She looked at me then shook her head as she pulled her hands away from me holding her head. She wiped her face then got up off the bed walking to the bathroom in silence. I keep breaking her and I don't want that. I want her to be happy and she can't be happy with me. I got up and went to the side of my room taking my phone off the bed and walking to the living room. Dialing the number I remember by heart , I waited for the line to break.

"Kurtis what the hell do you want? It's two in the morning,"

"I fucked up so bad momma," I said as I finally broke. This was the first time I actually felt the way I did for someone, and she's just making me feel so weak.

"What happened baby? And if you swear at me again I'll punch your fucking lights out,"

"I'm sorry," I said as I gave a light chuckle, "Ma, I broke her, that girl I was telling you about, I broke her bad ma," my hands made a fist as I hit my foot, "I had sex with another girl right infront of her and made it seem like she was crazy, I-I Rage was mad at me, my main man don't be mad at me ma, he hasn't spoken to me all day ever since,"

"You're acting just like your father did with me and that makes you an ass. (Killa's mom is a Kittitian by the way so here goes the dialect). Wa de fuck is you problem child? I raise you betta dan dat. How many times a have to tell you, use you blasted common sense,"

"Ma I hear you but you know about my reputation,"

"Boy wa fuck reputation you telling me bout? Your farda had one to and see where it got him," she sighed, "Kurtis, Kurtis, Kurtis, how many times me call you name boy?"

"Three times ma,"
"You live by the sword, you die by the sword, know dat," she sighed again, "I sent you to college to get better than this, I know he left the gang to you, but you have to get better Kurtis, this gang can't be your whole life. You have to make a life for you own self else you will keep hurting others around you. Your cousin Sammi is willing to take over so just give it to him,"