Your Love, My Lie || mpreg - ON HOLD

Chapter 06 || Nightless

-Killua POV-

I wake up and look at my alarm. 5:30am... I turn to Gons side and see him sitting up on the bed, staring outside. "Gon? What are you doing up this early." I say in a sleepy voice.  "He's still out there." Gon says. "Who?" I say, getting up. "The guy I saw in the backyard." Gon says. I let out a weak sigh. "Gon, I told you. There's no one outside-" I say. "YOU DON'T KNOW THAT! I-I...I'm not crazy!" Gon says, raising his voice. "Calm down Gon." I say, rubbing circles on his back. He started slowly panting. I felt his heartbeat. It was getting unsteady. "Take deep breaths for me, ok?" I say. He slowly nods as he takes small breaths. "Remember what the therapist said, just breath." I say, still rubbing his back. After a few minutes, he calmed down. "I-I'm sorry I yelled..." Gon says. "Hey, it's ok. We all get angry sometimes." I say. "Yeah, but I shouldn't have taken it out on you. I'm a horri-" he says before I cut him off. "Don't even say it. Your a wonderful person, and you should know that." I say, putting my hand on his cheek. "Let's go to bed ok?" I say. He nods. "Your worth it, alright? Don't ever forget that." I whisper to him, giving him a little kiss. He nods then turns and goes to bed.

-Flash back: About 1-2 months ago, No One's POV-

Gon crawls into a small ball. "I-I don't wanna go." he says, tearing up. "Gon, you have to. It's for your own safety." Killua says, grabbing him arm and pulling Gon out of the car. They go inside the therapist office and check in. "Are you two Gon Freecss and Killua Zoldyck?" the woman at the front desk asks. "Yes." Killua says. Ok, you could go sit down over there while you wait." she says pointing at a neatly furnished waiting area. The two boys head that way and sit down. "Killua, am I wothless..?" Gon says, looking down. Killua looks at Gon for a second then wraps his hands around him. "No, no your not. Your amazing." Killua says. Gon starts tearing up. He burys his face in Killuas chest. "I'm sorry I'm putting you through so much. I'm sorry I'm not enough..I'm so sorry." Gon says. "Please don't say that..Your good enough, ok? You deserve everything, and more." Killua says. He lifts Gons head up and wipes his tears away. "Gon and Killua?" a woman says. They both stand up and follow her. The woman opens a door and lets then in. "Sit anywhere you'd like." she says, smiling. "Sir, would you mind if you wait outside?" she says to Killua. He nods. "Are you ok with that?" she says, turning to Gon. He looks worried. He slowly nods. Killua heads outside. "Ok, now we can start." she says as she closes the door behind her. She sits down on the chair facing Gon and grabs a notebook. "Do you mind telling me your full name?" she says. "G-Gon..Freecss." he mumbles. She writes it down. "Ok Gon, is it ok if I ask you a few questions?" she says. He nods. "Ok, for starters, who was that boy with you." she says. "Um, m-my boyfriend, K-Killua.." he says, unsure of his voice. She writes it down. "Oh, and I'm Yui Suzuki. How rude of me to not introduce myself!" she says. "I-It's ok, really.." Gon says. "Ok, Gon. Can you tell me the reason your here?" Suzuki says. Gon looks at her with a confused look. "Well, there is a reason your here, right? You wouldn't be here if you were ok. Do you mind telling me?" she says. Gon thinks about it then nods. "Well, a few weeks ago, I was taking a shower. When I got out, I saw Killua reading something. He was holding his hand over his mouth. I walk over to him, asking what happened. I look at the thing he was holding and it was my dairy. I had left it on my bed. He had been reading the recent page I wrote, which was me saying that I was gonna kill myself. He looked at me with tears in his eyes...." Gon says before trailing off. He begins to tear up. Suzuki hands Gon a tissue. "It's ok to cry. If you don't wanna talk anymore, its ok. You did great." she says, giving him a warm smile. Eventually Gon calmed down. "Do you mind if I ask a few more questions?" says Suzuki. Gon nods. "Ok, why did you wanna die?" she says. "Did someone hurt you?" she says. Gon slowly nods. "Was it your boyfriend?" she asks. "N-No." he says. "Was it a close relative? A friend?" she says. Gon started to feel uncomfortable with all the questions, since he didn't wanna have to tell anyone about his 'incident'. "Are you getting uncomfortable?" she says. "H-How did you know?" he says. "Well, when others pause, I tend to focus on their faces. I've learned a lot by doing that. You moth started trembling a little, and your face started to 'wrinkle'. Your face before was calmer." she says. 'Wow, that's amazing!' Gon thinks. "See? You look surprised now!" she says, smiling. "C-Cool.." Gon says, quietly. Suzuki lets out a warm, soft chuckle. There was silence, but it was different than what Gon has experienced before. It was, comfortable silence. "Look, this might sound kinda, um, 'deep', but can I still ask you?" she says. "S-Sure.." Gon says.