The rules of the game

Chapter 8

Merry christmas I hope you had a good holiday here is the eighth chapter   

     "...he's with... her,why is he with her... why is he kissing her, no... why... he's here... with me... not HER!!" I say running past them crying

"huh? NAGITO COME BACK!"someone yells but i don't want to, it hurts, I was right he doesn't like me, "NAGITO PLEASE!" I don't want to go back, I want to run, at this point i'm just running who cares where, i've been running for some time now but I don't care, I just want to escape it all!

*falls over a tree* "ow," I say tears still falling down my face, "wait where am I?" I look around, i've never been to this part of the island, " no,no,no, this isn't happening, it's ok i'll just get my monopa-" I reach for my mono pad but it's not i'm my pocket, "what do I do!"

I collapse on the closets thing I can find, " I-i'm scared, should I stay were I am or should I go back, I can't go back, maybe I will just die out here, I...just... want... h..a..j" (he fell alseep)
    my eyes slowly open it's really warm wasnt i just cold? I hear a sweet voice

        "h-hey nagito are you ok, I found y-you sleeping in the forest, do you want me to get hajime?"the sweet voice says

  "no don't get hajime, please don't get anyone"I say getting up

"o-of course nagito, I-i'm sorry!"the voice which was reveled as monomi said

      "it's ok just don't tell anyone where in am,please monomi" i say to her

       "of c-course i wont tell anyone, do you need something to eat or d-drink?" monomi asks me

             "no thank you monomi, by the way where are we?" I ask her looking around the room, i dont think ive ever been here

"o-oh well this is my house! my s-students never usually come into my h-home but I will make an exception for you, but are you h-hurt, do you wan-"she was saying but I cut her off

"monomi calm down i'm perfectly fine,I was just lost that's all please stop worrying about me" I tell her trying to calm her down

"your right i'm so sorry, but why were you in the first in the first place? it's not easy to just somehow accidentally stumble there!"she says to me

"I was just running, I wasn't looking, but it didn't matter where I was, I just wanted to be in a different place, so I ran, it was the only thing my body would let me do" I say to monomi feeling heartbroken remembering what I had saw

"well what were you running from? of course you don't have to tell me" she says to me

"well hajima and chiaki, they were kissing" I say to monomi looking down trying not to cry

"o-oh nagito i'm s-sorry, why don't you j-just go talk to h-hajime about it?maybe there was a reason."she says patting my head

"we aren't even dating it shouldn't matter if he kisses someone else,he just doesn't like me like that, there's nothing more to it"I say starting to cry

"n-nagito please don't c-cry,you guys did k-kiss why would h-he kiss you if h-he doesn't like y-you?"she says to me wiping my tears of my face

"yea- wait how do you know me and him kissed?" I ask her

"I have c-cameras all around m-my island you know, and o-one is pointing so I can s-see all your dorms"she says to me

"that's kinda creepy monomi,but what if he kissed me because he felt sorry for me? what if he never liked me,that would make a lot of sense, why would he even like a piece of trash like myse-" I say but monomi cuts me off

"nagito d-dont talk about your self like that, you a-aren't a p-piece of trash" she says to me trying to make me feel better

"thank you monomi for trying to make me happy, what do you think I should do monomi? I really like hajima and this hurt me to see him kiss chiaki, why does it hurt so much,maybe the universe doesn't want me to be happy, maybe that's it" I say still very sad

"h-hey if I may ask h-how do you feel when you'er with hajime?" she asks me "explain it t-to me"

"well when i'm with hajime, I feel a little nervous but also happy, I get a weird feeling i'm my stomach, and like when i'm with him anything can happen, I feel scared but safe at the same time," I say smiling ",I feel like no one else matters, nothing but us, he's my hope" ( i thought of that one makoto and byakuya audio where it's like 'you are my hope makoto neagi writing this ) I tell her as I start to stare of into space

"n-nagito i think I might know why you feel like this, your in love with hajime, you love him very much" she starts to explain "that's why it really hurt you when y-you saw him kiss chiaki,you didn't want him to because you love him, you called him your hope and you love hope, if i'm not wrong"

"I do love hope, and when I think of hope it does make me feel happy, the same happy I feel with hajime" I say to her " but he was kissing chiaki that shows he doesn't like me monomi" I say sighing

"you still don't know why he did that maybe there was a reason" she's says again

"what should I do?" I ask monomi

"talk to him that's what i've been telling you to do for like an hour n-nagito" monomi replies "now g- go" monomi says

"ok I will talk to him, thank you monomi, you really helped me" I say walking out of her house,

( I will be making the chapters this long from now on because they were really short)