Oh and of course, in the midst of that, my b-I-l’s dog, (13-y/old St.Bernard, ancient Dino of a puppy, and just as cute as a 6-month old one,) was just put to sleep this week because he developed a balance/seizure thing I don’t understand; my brother-in-law and Sibling, both Veterinarians, but just sorta *slumped* when they said what it was called, and they’re my medical barometers for animals, if that makes any sense, so that itself was already terrifying, but yeah, it was a done deal immediately, apparently, so they told me he was being put to sleep the following day to prevent him from ‘rapidly deteriorating’ which I was assured was way, *way* worse that just being put peacefully to sleep.
Seeing as taking care of that dog was my literal Therapy Session, like all the things that keep me from jumping off a bridge, I’m not doing the best, which I can’t say to my sibling because it sounds super selfish to say ‘hey I’m really sorry your dog died, but it’s mostly because now I’m super depressed and I don’t have a dog to walk because mine is in Florida with my mother, so your dog dying is super inconvenient to my mental health’ because that would be a dick move of epic proportions!
***SO*** that’s been my life for the past three months! Exciting, eh? So action-packed! But enough of my bitching, I started this message as a holiday thing and got severely off-track within, like, the first sentence! Now:
Happy Holidays, everyone! I really hope you all have happy, healthy seasons, and for those who celebrate a holiday this season, whichever it is, I hope you have loving friends and family around you, and that you have as much strength as you need to keep moving forward! I honestly, fervently hope that each one of you has everything you need to thrive this season, and I hope that I can start writing again and provide something, however small, to help, but I wouldn’t hold your breath, considering I work on Christmas and new years both.