alazyass_
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Happy Birthday to my Favorite Person <3 As I am writing this, it is currently the 22nd of May— But I decided to post it in the early morning of May 23rd to keep up with appearances lol. It has become some sort of a tradition for me, writing you these little notes on your birthday every year— I don't plan on stopping anytime soon btw. So if by some miracle, you ever saw these little notes of mine, well... Atleast you know that I care a lot lol. It's because, I do care a lot. Every night I pray to God that maybe one day our paths will collide again. But while I'm low-key waiting for that to happen, I've made myself busy so that I wouldn't wallow myself in regrets and tears. Other than school and upcoming college, I tried to dip my toes in the love department. Admired some dudes form afar, stopped, then imagined if I didn't fuck everything up— Maybe you'd still be here. I would be writing this on the 23rd, buuuut I'm kinda busy. Look at your girl lol, she's adulting and travelling on her own now. She's thriving, making friends, trying new things— I really wish you could see me right now. And I really wish I could see YOU right now. Everyday I wonder how you've been, if you're alright, if you always remember to take your lantus or check your blood sugar, if you eat healthy or if you've played any new games today. I'd wonder if given the chance, you'd somehow find your way back to me— Ayo I'm acting delulu again. Happy Birthday to you, I wish for you to always be happy and healthy. That's all I ever want you to experience, because you've been through hardships all your life and I think you've had enough of those. It kind of feels like I don't have much to say— My words aren't wording rn I'm not sure why, but I hope I got my message across. As always— I love you, you dork. We're getting older, but I still love you all the same.