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My hate for you grows day by day,
It isn't even a joke anymore,
And I don't have a say
In what I should do.

Sometimes, you feel like bliss
In the midst of my drowning
And I'm never able to come up to the shore I miss,
That's how under the ocean I am.

You feel like kalopsia,
Making me happy and look at things the way they're not,
Because it always ends in flames,
I know that too well by now.

Aren't you scared of anything?
Or do you like making others be afraid of you?
If so, then you're succeeding darling,
And now look at what you've done.

I'm drowning in the vast oceans
Not able to come up to the shore
Because I'm afraid,
That I'll not be able to handle it anymore.

You get inside me every time I try to be confident,
Every time I try to swim,
But even if I try my best and hardest
In the end, you never let me win.

Whispering in my ears,
"The aurora is near,
Come be with me,
And you won't go away
That's how big I am, your anxiety."

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-about-

written: july 24, 2021

a little something i wrote for my literary club activity.
it describes anxiety as i feel it. i wrote the poem during the time i was feeling really low, so it's only feelings, and the poem is really bland.
does anxiety feel like this? to me, it's suffocating, and i'm not able to come out of it no matter how much i try.

-anyways, thanks for reading, people!! do vote and comment if you liked it-

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