(MA) Travis x reader. I'll never love you.

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by theirlsayakamaizono

by theirlsayakamaizono

Male angst.
TxR

Notes;
Have fun dying as you read this lol
A request is the next chapter.

TW//Suicidal actions!!
Stay safe! <3

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I've loved Travis for a year now. We're juniors now. I've decides to confess at the end of the first semester. I loved him so much, with full homo. I was such a fucking idiot. Why would I decide to crush on a christian kid? They don't like homosexuals like myself. I asked him to meet me at the nearest corner store. He simply tsked and agreed.
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I wait for him and he comes. In a dark blue sweater and jean shorts topped off with a black belt. I blush. " Let's grab some snacks! My treat! " I grab his hand and drag him into the store. He grumbles. He gets chips and candy. I get a soda and a hotdog. We chill at the nearest park. " So why'd you call me here? Was it just for snacks? " he stares into my eyes, munching on chips. I look away, flustered. " Listen Travis. I guess I'll be straight forwar- " I chuckle. " sorry. Anyways, I have a mega crush on you. " We sit in silence. " i don't like you that way Y/N. Thanks for snacks. I'm taking my leave. " I frown. I start walking home. I start silently crying. I'm so fucking stupid. I reach my house. Why did I think that was a good idea? no one's home. I go to my bathroom and grab the sleeping pills. I don't think they'll do the job but I'll try. I swallow them all down, or at least ten of them. Everything is blurry. I fall asleep for (hopefully) the last time.

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Travis.
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I rejected him. Dad won't approve of him. Dad doesn't approve of any boy. Girls. Girls. Girls. I loved him though. I loved him so much. I feel so sorry for him.

It's five in the afternoon and i get note that Y/N is in the hospital. With Father's permission, i go to the hospital. It's all my fault, I'm so sorry, Y/N. I feel my world crashing down with each step I take. I start to sprint, feeling guiltier as I get closer to the hospital. My stomach tightens. I run inside. " Which room is Y/N L/N in? " I ask, panicky. " Sir, please calm down. He is in room twenty eight. " I thank them and run up the stairs. I wait impatiently at his room. The doctor comes out. " Are you here to see Ms. L/N? " I nod, hoping that he'll say he's alive and well. " He's unconscious but has a fifty fifty shot of dying due to how many he swallowed. " my eyes widen. " m..may I still see him?... " she nods. I slowly walk into the pale room. " I'm so sorry, Y/N.. " I hold his cold hand. " I'm sorry. " I cry, my other hand holding onto my cross. I prayed for his survival. Y/N, please wake up.

just a short little story. if for some odd reason you want a part 2 then please tell me!

Kinda old as I post this but eh who cares?