Well...
Long time no see. If you ever look at my recent post, I'm actually start writing a new novel.
But that didn't go well. My life started to invade my privacy, so many things people force me to do.
I'm quite sad about my life. No, I hate myself for that.
But no worries, that doesn't mean I'm depressed... right?
...
I should go to a therapist, but that's too much for my parents. I should talk to my friends, if I have any left.
Many things I should do, but thanks to a certain someone... I can't. I'm pretty much a slave of society.
If I remember correctly, my childhood self wanted to go to an exciting adventure around the world.
'Nothing could go wrong!', I thought while confine myself in my childhood room everyday.
Yeah... now you just jinx yourself,'me'. Just because you got a little freedom a while back, don't hope for more.
A prisoner that suddenly goes out for training is still a prisoner after all. No matter, you're just going back again.
I'm trained as such, but to them that's just normal to treat your children like that.
Even my teachers agree.
'A child needs to be nurture as strictly and tightly as possible. That'll make them obedient.
They follow every order you give them, they even stop to give opinions of something they hate or dislike.
A pushover child is an ideal child.'
I can't fight back. My opinions don't matter. The cycles of self discipline and ignorance continues.
And so I say, "You've been through a lot,'me'."
So now, let's bury your dream somewhere. And maybe one day, you'll forget about it.
I once have many friends, I remember them clearly. But, do they remember me?
Oh... I'm... tearing up again. Let's forget about them too.
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Thank you for your time listening to me. I don't have any other place to voice my heart freely.
As I'm writing this, I'm on my schedule mood swing.
This week is the peak of my sad mood, so I just need to wait for next week manic state.
My parents don't know about it, neither do they know me.I hide it pretty well, or they just don't care I guess.
I'm tired.
In a few years, I'm sure I'll regret writing this. But hey, good time before my predictable downfall.
That's my life in general. How about your's?
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