Phantomhive Family, A Return From The Dead. [Black Butler Fanfiction]

A cold feburary night

      Alot can happen in only one month. I lost everything in one month. My parents, my home, and my brother. But I gained too.

    This last month I have gained all I have lost. But lost more in the process. My titles,  my butler, my life, and my freedom.
  
    I felt so cold on the inside. But so so so free. Like a weight of all I was came off.
 
   I feel as if I WAS finally free.

      This feeling of being my own pretty much. I mean not being me was...just freeing ... I want it again.
  
    I want to start fresh. On my own. I love those around me...but.. they have their own lives. Something I want. If I start fresh I will be...more free. No ties. No trouble.
  
    I plan to do that one day. Just be free. Be happy. Be someone else or be the true me.
  
   The true me is alot better than this me.

    No Ciel, no parents, no one...and...no... sebastian.

   Well someone can dream cant they. Over the stormy clouds into happiness.    
  

     If I could dream I do not know how I would make it this far in living. If you can call it that.

    A demon owns my soul. I will only know pain forever. Because of what? Some revenge on a family who saw me as nothing??
  
   A thing.  A SPARE. WORTHLESS. Ciel was the better version.

   I was the broken Version not goood enough to be queens Guard dog... lizzys fiance....no even good enough to be earl phantomhive.

    Nothing. No one.

    I am nothing.

    Maybe one day I can be...someone.

   Someone good. Happy. Me.

   Not a sickly child. Not an Earl. No the queens guard dog. Not some baby. Not someone who is own by Lucifer himself.

      A good human.

   I would give anything for that...I..well I already sold my soul for recente.

       I know what I must do. It wont be pretty but it has to be done....

    It's the only way.

    To turn me back.
  
   Save me .

   Protect me.

  Help me.

   I have to call Sebastian.

      "Sebastian, Come to me....THATS AN ORDER"