What A Life

home alone

I was home alone mom was out With work friends and Tristan is at football and hunter is somewhere

I was down stairs in the living room all snuggled up in blanket

I was wearing some pajama bottoms and a oodie with just a bra underneath

I get some popcorn and switched on the the TV putting on scream 5

I was watching the movie but then suddenly I hear the front door open

I turn my head around slightly too see who it was and quickly turn back around when I see Hunter entering the house

the first thing I think too do is pretend too be asleep

"I know your awake" I hear hunter say

"N no I'm not" I say

"Mhm than how are you speaking to me " he says

I mentally slap my self in the face

"I um-,I don't know"I give up

He pulls the blanket off me crouching down so we're face to face

"I've missed been able too fuck you"he says huskily

I shut my eyes but he squeezes my jaw making them shot open again

He moves his hand under my oodie stopping at my bra. He rubs one of my nipples from the outside of my bra before taking off my oodie completely

'Why are you doing this too me"I cry

"Because your to fucking sexy to resist" he says

He unclips my bra and starts licking and sucking on one whilst rubbing my other one

He bites down on one of my nipples making me whimper in pain

He stops torturing me on my nipples but then I hear him unzip his trousers and his dick shots out of his boxers and he shoves into my my mouth

He makes me choke on his dick and he moves my hands up to his balls forcing me to play with them

He makes me pleasure him for about 5 minutes before he cums down my throat

He picks me up throwing me over his shoulder and carries me up stairs into my bedroom

He drops me on my bed and he takes off all his clothes before he takes off mine

He climbs over me sucking on my neck he continues to kiss me all the way down to my pussy

He starts eating me out whilst I try begging him to stop but of course he Doesn't

He continue to eat me out harshly until I squirt all in his face

He lays down on my bed and pulls me towards him, he places me on his dick sliding me down so he's fully in me

I cry out in pain as he grips my waist moving me back and forth on his dick making me ride him

"carry on" he demands before letting go of my waist

I continue to ride him slowly as I know what will happen if I don't

''Faster" he says and I quicken up my paste as tears continue to flow out my eye

"Good girl just like that"he says

I carry on forcing myself too Ride him as he grunts and moans whilst im crying in pain

He finally pulls me off of him pushing me down on my side and cuming on my face

He gets up and gets himself changed before leaving my room

I lay there on my bed my hearts beating like crazy and my face is drenched and so is my bed

Could my life get any fucking worse and it doesn't help the fact that I'm pregnant and I can't tell anyone and I just miss my mom

And God knows what would have happened if I told hunter

I just lay there crying my eyes out I'm surprised I have tears left I've never cried this much in my life and its so draining and annoying but I just can't help it

After crying for about what feels like a whole 2hrs (it was 10 minutes)I finally get up wash my face and get myself changed again all my clothes are here but I though he left them down stairs

I put a towl other the wet parts on the bed as I am too drained to change the bedsheets I climb back into my bed and try drift to sleep

I keep tossing and turning in my bed as a can't fall to sleep I sit up and reach for my phone on my bedside table

I switch it on and see the time is 19 39 mom doesn't get black till 22 30 but Tristan should be back soon

I go on to snap and see a message from Claire she have sent me a picture from when we were little

I can just remember Claire was sleeping at mine and my mom always brought us matching outfits

The memories bring tears to my eyes and before I know it I'm crying again

I start hyperventilating and my chest starts to feel heavy and my lungs tighten up

I can feel myself about to have a panic attack

I have been having panic attacks a lot lately but this one seems different

I try to calm myself down by breathing but It doesn't help

I remember a method my therapist from when I was younger told me the 333 method

I do all the steps and I calm down a little but tears still fall from my eyes I still feel like shit and so mentally and physical drained and I can't take this suffering no more

I pick up the lighter that was laying on my bedside table and pull down my trousers and start burning myself

I do this as a way to cope as I feel as if I am trapped and can't speak to no one

"Hi sienna, sienna?"