Kailani
It was eerily quiet.
I didn't understand why it was bothering me though. I'd been on my own for almost ten years. Shouldn't I be used to it by now?
With a sigh I slid off my bed and wandered over to the room that girl Nazifa had stayed in. I stood there for a few moments, just looking in. A cool breeze from my open bedroom window made goosebumps rise on the back of my neck. I shivered and turned to close it. Suddenly, another thought hit me. Nazifa hadn't wanted to go home. So, where had she gone?
"Why do I care?" I asked myself, stopping at the top of the stairs. "I don't even know her." I shook my head and headed downstairs. I picked up my bag and slung it over my shoulder. I really didn't want to go back there. I didn't want to see it. But I hadn't gotten any leads here. I had to go back to Kashan. Back to that forest, back to that cabin. Or rather, what remained of it.
I don't know why I didn't think to go there first. Maybe it was because I didn't want to go back there. It made sense though. To start my search where it all began.
I dug my nails into my arm as I exited the city. It was a bad habit I had picked up not long after escaping the orphanage. The kids there weren't very nice, at least not to me. I never understood why. I wasn't rude to them, and I had done everything in my power to make them my friends.
My nails sunk deeper into my skin, piercing my skin and drawing blood. I stopped and stared down at the blood rolling down my fingertips. It wouldn't be long before it scabbed and became embedded in my nails. Then I could pick it out with my teeth. Another bad habit I had acquired. I had quite a few of those.
The walk was long, which I expected. I mean, I was going over three thousand miles on foot. I could've stolen a wagon, or at least a horse, but I hadn't really been thinking about that as I was leaving. I hadn't really been able to think of anything except that horrid forest. I used to love playing in the forest when I was small. Now, when I looked into one, all I could see was that day. I could feel the heat of the fire as it scorched my back. I could hear myself screaming as I banged desperately on his door. His door. His door.
"Not again." I gasped, doubling over and resting my hands on my knees. I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling lightheaded. I could feel tears burning behind my eyelids. As if begging to be let out. But I would not cry. It didn't matter that no one was around to hear or see me. I would not cry.
Realizing I was going to faint if I didn't calm down soon, I slowly lowered myself onto the ground. Looking up at the sky I took a few deep breaths and tried to think happy thoughts. There wasn't much that made me happy nowadays. Closing my eyes I thought about all my favorite foods, candy, the orphanage children. My eyes shot open and I frowned when my thoughts drifted to Nazifa.
I shook my head and stood up, dusting my pants. At least I'd stopped panicking. I picked up my bag and slung it over my shoulder. I didn't have time to rest any longer. It was going to take me a month to reach Kashan. I supposed that was my fault. I had wanted to make sure I was as far away from that cabin as possible.
I dug my nails into my arm again. I knew I probably shouldn't be doing that, but it was the only thing that distracted me. It made the voices quiet down. It was as if I'd pressed a button in my brain and just muted everything. I couldn't help but remember the first time Raksha had caught me doing it.
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I exhaled shakily and slumped against the wall. I hated feeling like this. I hated thinking about it. I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to control my erratic breathing.
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𝕭𝖚𝖗𝖓𝖊𝖉 𝕾𝖊𝖈𝖗𝖊𝖙𝖘 (𝕯𝖗𝖆𝖋𝖙 𝕿𝖜𝖔)
FantasyShe pounded on her brother's door, screaming. No answer. Her tears intensified to the point that she could barely see. Her lungs were quickly filling with smoke. ...