Crowned

5, 4, 3, 2, 1

there are 5 ways i could say i love you

but it wouldn't matter because

for every iloveyou, he says ten more .

there are 4 stitches in my heart 

and when i breathe, my heart contracts, flutters, pulses

but it doesn't matter because when you sleep 

you don't dream about me, you dream about him.

the 3 necklaces i gave you lay waste on your dressers

because you have his locket resting in the hollow of your collarbone.

i have only slow danced 2 times with you and those 2 experiences were

the best of my life, but you don't remember them because you've danced

hundred slow dances with him. 

i've said i love you to you 1 time, but it doesn't matter because he's 

said it thousand times more and

when you close your eyes

you don't see me

you see him.

[a/n]: wow look who's back w a poem. what's it been? like ten years????? enjoy nonsensical thoughts.