Dear Ana,
I haven't written in a while, I know. I gave up on skinny a while ago. Now I'm motivated more than ever to be skinny. Music helps. Especially songs like Skinny and Breathe Me by Sia. Today I've eaten snacks and lunch and food again. I feel disgusting. Sometimes I want to purge it all out. I get the urge in my stomach and throat a lot. But I don't. Not yet anyway. I did once and it was the worst feeling ever. It took forever to vomit and when I did, only small chunks of food came out. My eyes watered until they were very red. I don't think I'd like to do it again.
