Thy say you die twice, once the moment your heart stops beating, and again the last time someone says your name. But in my opinion, it's a lot more complicated than that. After all, what would life be if we could explain everything in one simple saying?
I think you lose and gain pieces of yourself as your life rises and falls, twists and turns. And, as I lost those last, precious fragments of my very being, as they were shed like feathers from a moulting bird, I fell down, down, down until rock bottom was there to greet me like an old friend. A horrible, painful, ever-infuriating companion who I had the misfortune to know for far too long. Someone who eventually, unfortunately, brought about my untimely end.
But, if we were to go by the aforementioned logic, I am not yet dead. After all, so many people are still saying my name, whether to lament or laugh, cry or smile. It's easier for them, though. I think it's more painful to watch without being able to influence, like I do. I think it's better to sob than to do nothing, sitting as if chained, like I am.
But you don't care what I think. It's okay, I really don't mind. Actually, I'm not entitled to blame you in the slightest, because according to my logic, which I tend to favour heavily over philosophical sayings, I am, in fact, dead. Deceased. Departed. Gone.
And I'm not coming back.
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The Life and Death of May Martinez
Teen FictionThey say you die twice, once when your heart stops beating, and again the last time someone says your name. With everybody in her small town talking, May isn't quite dead yet, and neither is the bizarre smattering of clues she left behind. They wil...