Through The Dark

1. Clueless

Shayla's p.o.v

It's like 2 in the morning and I'm just walking outside on the streets, trying to find my way back home. How and why did I get here you may ask? Well, basically I just broke up with my boyfriend in the nicest way possible and well, he was pretty mad and kicked me out of his car. Whatever now, I'm actually proud that I left his selfish and painful ass. Finally, I'm free for once in my life! No more school or having a bitchy boyfriend, thank the lord.. but I also don't have a ride to go home, crap. Now all I'm doing is passing by closed stores (except for the 24-hour ones like 7/11 and Dunkin' Donuts) and only a car or two has drove by since. New Jersey may be a wild and busy place during the day and night but from the town that I live in, it's not that bizarre as people would think.

My parents and I used to live together in the town Verona but ever since they got divorced back to when I was about 8 or 9 years old, my dad stayed but my mom decided to take me along with her and move to Montclair (which is literally the town next to Verona). I still don't understand, she could've moved to another town farther away or New York for pete's sake to make her life easier since that's also where her job is. I never question or bring it up ever though. She's been through a lot as far as I've remembered and just asking why she chose to move to the town next to dad might be too much. It's not a big deal to me anymore because I've learned to accept everything the way it is but still, I find it a little strange whenever the thought slips into my mind from time to time.

It's been a while since I've been walking on this street and to be honest, I don't actually know where I'm going. This is quite stupid but I'm really hoping that I'll magically end up at my house somehow. If you're wondering why the hell a teenager like me has no idea where her house is and isn't familiar with the town she's lived in for about 10 years, it's because I actually don't live here. I mean, I literally do with my mom but the thing is, I'm never around. I'm always in Verona hanging with all my friends that I've known since pre-k. I'm only home in Montclair to sometimes sleep, holidays, or if I don't have a ride to go anywhere. Almost the entire time, I'm out of this town so I can't exactly identify everything that good, even though it's been years. You can find me either at my dad's place or other places with my buds.

The most obvious question is, why don't I just simply live with my dad? In fact, I've always wanted to, I have better access to everything and I feel much happier but the thing is, if I did live with him, that would leave my mom all alone and depressed. I don't have any bad intentions with her but I've always been more of a daddy's girl. Though I love her, I do plan on moving out once I go to college which is all the way in Washington. Hopefully she'll learn to cope it when the time comes.

Another fun fact? I still went to school in Verona even though I was supposed to go to school in Montclair. Look, you think the whole divorce thing was just hard for my parents? It was especially hard for me too because yeah, it was grieving to no longer have the "perfect-and-completed" family (probably scratch off the perfect), but it was also upsetting to leave all the people that I love. Like I said, I was around 8 or 9 when all of this drama happened so when my mom told me back then that she was deciding to move and bring me along, I couldn't stop crying and yelling at all after. I was just so angry and had a terrible meltdown. Pretty much in the end, my mom chose to make a deal with me that she would bring me to school and anywhere that I wanted as long as I lived with her. I agreed because all I really cared was that at least she would be able to transport me to any place of my choice.

My mom spoiled me so much when I was younger, she still does today but because I'm more mature and wiser, I usually don't take advantage of her anymore the way I used to. She stopped bringing me to school when I started my senior year or really anywhere I wanted like before because she works a bit longer now since she was promoted to a higher level of the company 2 years ago. Not only that but my friends and I have our license too, that should practically explain everything.

After a few small strolls, still clueless where I'm going, a dark-colored car with bright headlights slowly pulls up next to me. Hah, how nice I mean, it feels like those cheesy moments in chic flicks where a girl has no idea what to do or where to go and all of a sudden a guy comes to rescue... but it also feels like a crime scene is about to happen where a lost person like me is now going to get kidnapped, robbed, or raped- oh shit, should I start running then?

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