I wish it was all a dream. All the pain, triumps, heartaches, rejections..I wish it was all just a dream. Tipong paggising ko nasa lang condo ako, I'll be up from bed with a smile. Lift my curtains, I'll cuddle with my dog, make breakfast, send voicemails to my dad because I can't afford to call him on his busy days, call mom to ask her if she's available but I guess she won't kasi Brittany will ask her to shop with her.
I'm alone. I am used to this life. Am I?
I tried opening my eyes and I am now in a very familiar place. There's this little kid playing a piano. She looks fragile. Tipong anuman oras kalabitin ay bigla nalang iiyak but her eyes are focused on the key she's playing. Then she'll look at the audience. One by one. She's surely expecting someone pero natapos na ang pamilyar na obra ay walang dumating na kahit sino. She sniffed and wiped her eyes.
My fist balled. I close my eyes. Masakit palang makita ang nakaraan ko. Gaano ba kadami ang mga araw sa buhay ko na ganyan ako? Isa? Dalawa? Tatlo? Do I still want more of those days?
Then I felt a warm touch of my hands. I open my eyes again and saw my mom holding my hands tight. She's sobbing. My lips parted. I tried saying a word but it won't come out. I heard someone called my name.
Prim! It's Prim! Inilibot ko ang aking mga paningin and there, she's on my other side crying too.
What's going on?
I close my eyes again. I felt tired all of a sudden but I want to talk to them. I want to ask them kung okay lng ba sila. Maybe..maybe I can do it later. I want to rest.
I remember...when I first saw Radicus. He was under the rain. It was the first time I felt my heart throbbed. It was a different one. Malala pa sa pagiging curious ko sa lovelife ni Prim. It's the first time I got curious of how my own love story be like.
Will it be like a fairytale?
I suddenly felt warm. A familiar warmth..I. can remember Radicus's hugs.
Radicus....
I open my eyes and how I wish this isn't just a dream. Radicus is sleeping soundly beside me. His right hand is on my head while the other is on my hand above my stomach.
I tried moving a finger but it felt really really difficult. I tried again. Hanggang sa nagawa kong maiangat ang kamay ko. I was about to reach for his tousled hair when his head lifted. His lips parted, his sleepy eyes turned alive at wala akong ibang nasabi kundi..
"Hi." I made an effort to give him a warm smile kahit nahihirapan ako.
"Hi?" He answered na tila wala pa sa sarili. Then he cupped my face and kissed my forehead.
"God!Maya! You're really awake." He said at paulit-ulit akong hinalikan sa noo.
"You made me dead for days! Don't do that again. Please don't ever do that again" He said. Halos mabasag ang boses nito.He looked like he's about to cry.
Bumukas ang pinto kasabay ng pagpasok ni mommy at Prim. Mommy was shocked to see me. Prim scooted on my bed kaya bahagya akong napangiwi sa sakit.
"Sorry na!! Namiss kita girl!! You made us worried! Akala ko..." Then Prim sobbed like a child. The last time I saw her like this was when her sister died.My heart is breaking seeing her cry.
"Maya anak? Thank God gising ka na." Mom approached me as well, crying.
Hindi naman na ako magtatanong kung nasaan at kung anong nangyari sa akin. Based on where I am now and there reactions, alam kong hindi lang ako basta-bastang nagising sa pagkakatulog.
