~ 𝕺𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖊𝖉 ~ 𝖓𝖇𝖆𝖘𝖐𝖎𝖒𝖆𝖘𝖐

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𝕂𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕣𝕖𝕝𝕝 ♥️

"I'm such a dumbass bro!" I smacked the staining wheel

"Maybe if I just-" I closed my eyes running a red light not even opening them

I press on the gas a little more going faster with my eyes still closed

Then my baby in Stokeley stomach popped up in my mind making me open my eyes and push on the breaks

"My baby needs me" i mumbled

I sighed driving normally now, I wanted to kill myself but my baby needs me

And I know it'll hurt Stokeley more, even though he hates me if he found out I was dead he'll blame himself for it.

I drive to my house seeing Tyquian car was there. I raised my eyebrow going into the house

Soon as I opened the door Jahseh runs and hugs me

"You're gonna get through this Kentrell he just needs a little time" he whispered

"He won't even tell me if he'll still let me go to the doctors appointments" I sighed

Jahseh gasped picking up his phone

"Jah don't, I don't want him to block ya" I mumbled

"What we finna do about lyric?" Tyquian says

"That hoe ain't even worth it big bruh"

"Not worth it to who?" Jah said

He looked down at his phone telling us to shut up cause it's Stokeley. He anwsered putting him on speaker

"Jah! Why do I always do this!" He cried

"Best breathe, what happened?"

"Why do I always say I'm gonna let him go but then be wanting him to come home! I'm trying and trying to convince myself I don't need him but I can't!"

Jahseh looks at me and I just stare at the phone I'm trying to hold in my tears but here they come

"I'm so in love with him Jah I don't know what to do" he sighs

I bit my lip whipping my eyes

"You need to tell him that best, you know how he crazy over you and act like he dying when you not talking to him"

I rolled my eyes, just talk about me like Ian right here

"I can't! I won't. When I get enough money this time I'm really moving away"

I snatch the phone from Jahseh, he not going nowhere

"No the fuck you're not! I don't care if ya hate me, if it's fuck me, or if ya can't stand me ya not leaving without me"

"Can you just please give the phone back to Jahseh?" He sighed

"No, unlock yo door slime I'm tired of this shit already"

"Give the phone back to Jahseh"

"I'll give it back to him if ya let me talk to ya in person"

"Well ima just hang up"

"Stokeley I tried to kill myself" I sighed

"W-What?"

"Leaving ya house I was driving with my eyes close hoping somebody would hit me and I would die, but then I thought about our baby and I know the baby needs me."

"Kentrell don't do no dumb shit like that ever again! I don't care what terms we're on I can't lose you forever"

"Please open the door baby"

"No Kentrell give the phone back to Jahseh"

I clinched my fist in anger, I love him but sometimes I just wanna hurt his luh ass

"Stokeley Ian playing with ya ass! We ain't doing this shit again when all we gotta do is communicate like fucking adults!"

"Anyways, give the phone back to jah"

I bite my lip giving the phone back to Jahseh and running my hands through my hair before punching a wall

"Bitch you got him mad" Jah said

I just continue punching the wall letting tears fall down my face

"Fuck!" I yelled laying my head on the wall

"Kentrell Chill out my nigga for you break yo house!" Ty said

"Ty, I can't lose him."

"You not gone lose him he heard what he said he loves you give it time"

"If he moves I swear ty" I started laughing crazy

"If he moves I'ma have to kill him"

"Stop talking like that" Jah says

"He can't leave me" I mumbled

"He can't leave me"

"He can't fucking leave me!" I yelled

"Calm down!" Tyquian yelled

"Let's go hit this lick bruh how bout that?"

I chuckled nodding, I'm finna get this anger off one way or the other

"Tyquian I swear y'all bet not get arrested" Jah said with a worried expression on his face

"Chill baby it's the only way to calm him down" ty says pecking jahs lips

"Be safe please" Jahseh says holding on to his shirt

"I will I promise"

I walk out the house after him with Stokeley on my mind. He wouldn't want me to do this but this the only thing that's fine keep me sane while he's gone

•••

Here I am back on his porch, am I gone stop coming to his porch? No that was an easy Answer.

"Stokeley" I knocked on the door again

He's probably sleep. I just slide down the door with my face in my hands. Slowly going crazy the more and more I can't see his face

"Ion know why I came ya like a magnet or some, I can't stay away from ya"

"I'm trying not to be that crazy nigga that knock yo door down but ya making that hard" I continued to talk to myself

"Damn why ya gotta be like this? Why can't ya just talk to me face to face huh?" I look back at the door for a second

"Because when we face to face, when I look into your eyes I forget everything you did wrong. I fall in love all over again." I heard

I sighed knowing he's sitting on the other side of the door. This is like torture

"Just let me in I'm not gone look at ya"

"Now we both know that's a lie" he laughed

"Yea, yea whatever" I smiled

We sat there talking through the door, some people looked at me like I was crazy cause they couldn't see who I was talking too. Ugly ass folks need to mind they business

"You gone tell me why you was at her house"

"I'm not addressing that until ya open tha damn door" I groaned

"Well goodnight Kentrell" I heard him stand up

"Wait Stokeley!"

"Yes?"

"I love ya"

"I love you too Kentrell"

"Make this night better with a kiss?"

"Goodnight Kentrell!" He laughs

I smiled shaking my head before getting up, feel like we 16 or some shit

Before I get in my car I looked back to see him looking outside from the window

I blew him a kiss and he flipped me off, so romantic huh?

I know I have to get in that house. Ion know how ima do it but ima do it.