Crumbled dreams ( forthbeam) [Completed]

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Beam was bewildered. He didn’t understand why p'forth was still sleeping though its 9am in the morning. Beam wake up early as usual prepared breakfast and clean the house as his daily routine and now waiting for p'forth to wake up. Normally his husband would be ready for breakfast at exact 8:30. But today, it’s already half hour past their breakfast time and forth was still sleeping. Beam was having battle in his mind. Should he wake him up? Didn’t he have work today? What if he is sick?

After debating himself for half an hour, beam couldn’t stop himself but went into the bedroom to wake forth up. He looked at sleeping figure of his husband, handsome as always, even with that bed hairs. He slowly opened the curtains hoping forth will woke up by sunlight but to his dismay forth snuggle himself in the blanket. Jin click his tongue unconsciously, what should he do now? He called forth’s name but got no reply from the latter. Now beam has no choice but to nudge him. He went closer and nudge forth’s shoulder slightly. After doing it for few times, finally forth poke his head from soft blanket looked at Beam with sleepy eyes.

“What is it beam?” forth asked with his sleepy voice.

“Umm I-It’s already 9am. Y-you will be late for o-office if you didn’t gate up.”

Beam said without looking in forth’s eyes. He was looking everywhere but to forth’s eyes. Forth on the other hand now sat on the bed, blanket still on his lap, hairs messy, and observing beam. He couldn’t help but felt happy seeing how cute beam is behaving now. Looking everywhere but him.

“Oh. I took a day of.” forth said to which beam hummed a little. Beam’s mind was running of to every direction. Why did he take day of? Will he be here whole day? God it will be so awkward then. Beam was so much in his thoughts that he didn’t hear what forth has said. Forth flicked beam’s forehead gently making him flinch with a sudden closeness.

“What are you thinking that much?”

“Umm no nothing. Sorry. Did you said something?”

“Hmm. What is for breakfast today? I am damn hungry.”

“Umm steamed Egg and soup.”

“Oh can I have kimchee also. I really want to eat it.”

“beam?”

“Oh s-sorry. I-I will g-go and p-prepare it n-now.”

Forth looked at his now running husband. He sighed. Seeing beam’s reaction now, he could tell it will be hard to take beam out of his shell, that he and his mother unknowingly thrown beam into. He get up and went for shower. He had planned so many thing today for him and Beam.

Beam gulped the whole bottle of water. His heart was racing fast. What was that? Why p'forth behave like that? HE leaned himself near the counter. He felt butterflies in his stomach when he remember how p'forth flick his forehead earlier. Was he warming up to him? But he stopped himself about thinking about it. He don’t need his heart shattered again. It’s better to not keep any hope.

Beam prepared kimchee and now set the table and waiting for forth to come downstairs. Soon he found forth coming down in his pajamas.  Whenever he is at home, he will only wear pajama’s whole day.

“It smells good.” forth said but got no replied from beam. He looked at beam who was looking at him in Awww. Forth stopped himself getting more open with beam for now. He was sure, if he act like this out of nowhere, beam will feel something suspicious. And the last thing forth want is to beam found out he has read his diary secretly. And he also didn’t want to scare beam off on the first day. He should take everything slowly. Without beam realizing.

Forth eat breakfast silently while beam standing beside, looking if forth need anything. Forth really wanted to tell beam to sit and eat with him. But he stopped himself. Remember take it slow. He soon finished breakfast, and went to living room watching TV. But not before saying “The food was tasty.”

 He didn’t knew but his one sentence make the day best for beam. It’s the first time his husband praised for anything to beam. First time in month, beam happily washed the dishes and hurried to write the new thing to his diary. On the other hand forth smiled seeing how hurriedly beam do all work and rushed to his bedroom with a big smile. Surely to write in diary.