LOVE ME NOT || Bang Chan Soulmate au

24. Fragile

     I wish I could say that everything was fixed after that moment.

Everything got busier after our 'date'. Finals were approaching, making all of us spend more time filling our heads with useless facts rather than hanging out with each other. Chan and Felix were busy getting ready for their swim team's championship preliminary meet soon so I haven't seen either of them in a while. Scratch that. I've seen Felix the couple of times he's made it to work. I haven't seen Chan at all.

It didn't help that I knew who he would be around every time he went to practice.

     It also didn't help to know that Felix was spending more time with her as well.

     I can't help but think of the three of them hanging out, sitting together while they connected over experiences in their home country. Chan's smile as his body silently shook, Felix's deep laugh, and a blush on her cheeks from happiness.

     It wasn't fair, but I couldn't help but feel left out. It didn't really make sense. I didn't feel this way when Chan grew close to Felix or any of the other guys, maybe it was because I was always there. This time, I wasn't , but it was something that I didn't know how to change. I'm not on the swim team, I don't know English, and I can't help that she doesn't know Korean. Still, it felt like one by one, people I loved were leaving me. Maybe this was for the better? Maybe this would make my decisions easier? Maybe they could forget, but no matter what I tried to convince myself, I couldn't help but feel completely and entirely alone.

     I knew I wasn't. I had Minho, who had a vendetta against Ivy for some random reason even though he's never met her. I had Jeongin, who I felt closer to as he tried his best to hang around me, even when I was extremely sick or in an awful mood. And I had Seungmin, who was convinced he was my wingman and was slowly becoming one of the people I could lean on the most. She'd probably never win them over, but I'll never really know what happens after.

     I wish every thing could be okay.

     I wish I could really be Chan's soulmate.

     But he chose someone else.

     And I've gotten worse.

"Min Haewon, how do you feel about closing the cafe early?"

     I looked up from the napkin I had been doodling on, eyes focusing on the boy who had just left the kitchen. I exhaled, putting the pen in my hand down as I quickly glanced from him to the few filled tables.

     "Minho, we opened ten minutes ago," I said.

     The brunet leaned against the counter beside the cash register, crossing his arms over a flour covered apron.

     "So?"

     I crossed my arms back. "So," I sassed. "Don't you think we should wait a little bit longer to close up?"

     Minho scoffed. "No."

     Trying not to be obvious, I shifted my eyes toward the time on the register in front of me. There was still about an hour and a half until I told Minho I needed to leave. I didn't fully tell him why, just gave him some crap excuse that he seemed to somehow buy. He still doesn't know about my heart stopping, or the fact that I'm almost in the final stage of the disease. I honestly don't know what he thinks or what anyone thinks anymore. I'm so tied up in lies and loose strings that I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't know the truth.

I looked back at Minho. "Can't we stay open for like, one more hour?"

"I'm literally giving you an excuse to leave early and you're not taking it?" Minho argued.