That night where i froze my eyes
It was tough to hide my heart's cries
Dozen pairs of eyes didn't lie
Even my brother couldn't hide the fun
They all watching and laughing
Yet they knew nothing
I was there choking my own silent screaming
I tried to bury the flames underneath my chest dying
You thought jokes could make people happy?
You thought your jokes were funny?
For me, your jokes were all shitty
Why couldn't you just joke about yourselves instead of me?
Until now i keep recalling that night
That night where i ran into the woods nowhere
Trying to gather my scratched lights
Trying to gather my torn up clothes everywhere
I used to be a broken guitar string
You could easily cut me off into pieces
But now I am a concrete building
You can't break me down to unending tears
(6 oct '21)
