November 7th

EMPTY?

How could i blame someone,
i loved from my whole heart
and how should i act so unknown to
my favorite things
just act like i never knew them
so easy to say
so easy to talk about
But so cruel on my heart
The way you cherished
The way you felt
The way you smelled
and even the way you left
so special.
manipulate me into loving you
then go away
because of something i didn't do.
oh how easy for you to do,
how hard for me to explain it
now i feel empty
when i search you
because there was a time
when i got storms
while thinking of you.
i was young.
not fool,
you were worthy
not mature.
my lines could hurt you
but answer me with this,
That why everytime you leave,
you go with that hope of coming back into me?
my brain accepts you're not coming back
but what about the heart who loved you
whole day.every minute.every second
i cry, and harm my self
what kind of love is this?
the definition of love has changed completely
but what about the heart which is still the same?
then you say
please leave me alone.
and i leave you again.
bcs how could i hold on someone,
to whom i never meant
even a piece of their heart.
It was all in my head
Then why the hurt is in my heart?
if it was so easy for you to leave,
i believe it was really hard for your heart
To love me.
I could walk miles without you
but what about your thoughts
i could not even walk steps without them
the withdrawal of my love
From the windows of my heart
you took them out like a wind for you
now i feel empty because i got nothing there inside
i feel so fool of myself,
bcs I'm still making the scars
given by you more deep
moreover the deepest bond break theese days
but what we shared was probably
deeper than it seemed.
and then they say
Love can get much deeper than it seems.
How should i break the home,
I made in months
how should i tell myself
that its not the same place
where i wanted to rely on.

-wisteria