What happen yesterday continued to occupy my thoughts. Kinausap ko na si Mama to assured that everything was fine to prevent further inquiries.
I stayed up late last night feeling emotional, and now I'm struggling because I didn't finish my assignment. I should've prioritized it. Now I'm in class, sitting with my classmates, trying to copy someone else's answers.
Ngunit sa kabila nito'y 'laking pasalamat ko sa mga ito dahil walang nangahas na mag bring up sa nangyari kahapon, siguro'y 'nirerespeto din nila ang aking pananahimik kaya payapa ang aking magkasunod na schedule.
Hindi muna nag-defense and ibang grupo dahil na-admit ang anak ng aming thesis adviser kaya next week pa matutuloy ang research defense ng dalawang natitirang grupo.
Habang nagdidiscuss si Ma'am Ferrer, I'm trying my best to push my thoughts about Sir Lorenz. I could still feel my range towards him, pero iniisip kong wala din naman akong karapatan. Aside from that, a part of me was also wondering, Is he really like that? 'Cause it's unsettling that he acts that way towards others without a single idea who they are. Is he that eager to flaunt his intelligence and purposely make fun of me?
Ah... I shouldn't be fixated on him.
Nang lumabas ang teacher namin ay nagsilabasan na rin kami. As much as I could, I tried to act normal around my classmates and friends, but deep inside, I was still uneasy.
Pagkalipas ng ilang sandali ay bumalik na rin ang karamihan sa aming classroom. Sinadya kong hindi muna bumalik dahil pupunta muna ako sa CR. Pero minalas nga naman dahil late na nga, may naunang pang pumasok kaya wala akong choice kun'di maghintay ng ilang sandali.
Pagdating ko sa labas ng room ay sobrang tahimik. Inaasahan kong maingay lalo na't bago lang ang recess ngunit naisip ko bigla na may surprise visit ang principal kaya siguro gano'n.
As I squeezed the doorknob, I suddenly wished the ground would swallow me whole! The great Sir Lorenz was speaking at the front, holding books in his hands!
Hindi ko alam kung mapapatuloy ba ako sa pagpasok sa loob o tatakbo palabas. It was so careless for me not to think that he's the sub teacher! And now my classmates were all looking at me with the same expression.
But anyway, 'bat ako matatakot sa kanya? siya dapat!
As I hesitatedly standing at the door, feeling all eyes on me, Sir Lorenz's gaze met mine. His expression was unreadable, but I felt a surge of discomfort. Napaiwas ako ng tingin.
"You're four minutes and twenty-one seconds late." he stated the obvious, checking his watch with a stoic expression.
"I'm sorry," I whispered intending to head straight to my seat but I noticed that my chair was missing!
"You could use this, nasira ng kaklase mo ang sa'yo," he said while holding his, and then gave a glance at the boys at the back before continue discussing.
Tahimik nalang akong naglakad papunta sa harapan upang kunin ang plastic chair na nandoon bago bumalik sa aking table at naupo.
At pinanindigan talaga niya ang pagtayo! he remained standing for the entire duration of the class, nag suggest naman kasi si Ms. Pres na kumuha ng bangko but he kindly refused kaya hindi na rin ito nagpumilit.
Ipinatuloy niya ang kanyang discussion at aaminin kong hindi talaga ako nakikinig. I was busy the whole time checking his face, trying to remember if I'd already seen him before. At kahit anong pilit ko'y wala talaga akong ibang maalala naliban do'n sa encounter namin no'n sa hardware.
Natapos ang kanyang oras pero hindi pa rin kami tapos sa pag-solve sa 'binigay niyang activity. I know it's not that complicated pero grabe din kasi ang ginulgol kong oras sa pag study ng research namin nitong mga nakaraan kaya kaunti talaga ang aking nalalaman sa previous lesson namin na connected sa diniscuss niya kanina.
