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Shoot the messenger

Do you ever get that feeling that you're being watched? Someone's watching your every move? Checking up on you constantly? Never being able to be open about things? Well, that's how I felt when I wrote this one, and soemtimes still feel, it's when people don't trust you, even people you thought you knew and were close with, but obviously not how you thought...

I know you don’t trust me,

You’re always on my back,

Constantly on my case,

I hear you talking about it,

When you think I’m asleep,

Or when you think I can’t hear you,

Walls aren’t as thin as you seem to think,

Do you know how horrible it is to think you don’t trust me?

You never ask me,

You talk about it,

Then I “accidentally” walk in,

After listening,

And make you ask me,

Why don’t you ever believe me?

What have I ever done wrong to make you not trust me?

Well, that’s just it,

Nothing,

I’ve done nothing wrong,

To become this person,

I’m always in the middle of everything,

The middle one is what I’m known as,

I’m in the middle of family,

I’m the bridge to two groups of friends,

I’m the rubber band that gets pulled to and fro,

No one stops to think how I feel about all this,

About being the middle one,

I don’t like it,

I hate it,

It’s always me, who gets the blame,

When I’m simply the messenger,

You split,

And I was the middle part,

The only thing keeping you partly in each other’s lives,

I’m the chain in between that will bound you together for life,

You don’t seem to understand that,

Or like that,

But it’s not my fault,

So don’t shoot the messenger.