Story Shorts// Sidemen

Yours and Always

Trigger Warning: Suicide

Dear Boys,

The beginning of these letters always start with 'I'm sorry'.

Which I am, but that's not the reason I am writing this.

I decided to do this because I feel like I have no other choice.

This might seem too sudden or too rash?

But I really don't want to live anymore,

I don't think I can.

Nobody means more to me than you guys.

We've grown up together.

I love you guys more than anything,

But this is the end for me.

Simon knows my password for my channel.

After it's over and done with tell my fans that I will be looking over them all all at once.

Tell them I love them. Even the ones who weren't there through the tough times, and the ones that just tuned into the video.

I love them all.

I look down at my left hand while I'm writing this, the large piece of metal that is able to end life with one pull of it's trigger.

Wondering if is going to be worth it.

Not ending my pain but passing it over to you guys. My fans.

I would be selfish for doing it.

Part of me wants to say nothing else and do it but the other part is begging me to put the gun down and work out my problems like I have for so long.

It's just, whenever I need help, I feel alone.

I am alone.

My body is like a cage, trapping my happiness deep within it.

The happiness inside not being able to breath and it slowly dissolves away.

When/if you find this I am sorry I could not stop it.

Yours and always,

Elizabeth Taylor Bradley