Lost in the Darkness (English)

2 A bad Day

The day began with one of my hated nightmares. In the dream i was back at the Morningstar manor with my Father and Brother. My brother and i trained in the garden and our father strictly watching and commanding. My Brother was normally weaker than me but i hold myself back because i didn't want to hurt him as badly like the last time when he was unconscious for a whole day. But that i was holding back was not unnoticed and my father grew more angrier and my Brother wanted me to go at him with full strength, he wanted me to stop defending. Than i saw Hugin, my father's raven fly across and i was momentarily distracted. My brother seeing his chance and attacked. When i was able to stand again i noticed a deep slice across my right hip. My father angrily goes at me and pulled me inside the manor and his büro. There he throwed me on the ground in front of him and screamed at me. “ Clarissa what was that in the garden, do you really think i didn't notice that you were holding back and than you get distracted from Hugin. I thought i trained you better, but you holding back against your brother instead of showing your brother that he is weaker so you thought it is better to show me that you are weak , so weak that you can't even hurt your brother.”

I didn't looked at him instead i looked at the ground and i knew that the slice on my hip was still bleeding but i also knew i was not allowed to draw a Iratze, so i was silently listening. “Clarissa look at me” and i followed his command. “ How often do i must tell you that to love is destroying you, do you understand?” i declined my head but my father was shaking his head “I don't think so” During his words he pulled out a damon whip and came to stand behind me. During each blow on my back he told me that to love is to destroy and it makes you weak. I didn't scream instead i bit on my lip to the point of it bleeding. With every blow i become angrier and then came the darkness and i slipt into unconscious . And then i just only noticed the sting from drawing an iratze. I knew most of my wounds won't heal and would always remind me of my time when i was to weak. When i was able to open my eyes i noticed two things. Firstly i was on my bed in the loft and secondly it was only a dream. And even if i knew that it was only a dream, it still affected my when i noticed the pain of my scars of my back as if they were freshly put there. I shaked of my bad memories and looked at my clock which showed 05:59 AM. So i was standing up from my bed and was going to the bathroom. There i showered and put on my jogging pants and activity Bh with a black top and bond my running shoes. Clothed i left the loft with my headphones playing. Like every day i was going jogging and even if i lived the first ten years of my life in idris , i was deeply fascinated with the City of New York. It was the City which never slept and even now there were many people running around. I was running in the park when i came across a Room-demon. I looked around but i didn't see any other shadowhunter or downworlder which could possible see me when i would fight against the demon. With these thought i grabbed my stele out of my shoes and drawed a rune for invisible on my arm , pulled out my morningstar sword called Eosphoros and another seraph blade which i named Sandalphon bevor i attacked the demon. I wanted to kill it fast but the next moment there were more demons to kill. Bevor me where five others and they attacked first. At the beginning i only defended but then i attacked. The first blow cut the head from the body , another became a blow directly in his heart. Now the number of demons is three. One of them was able to hurt me on my arm and it was just a matter of time until i wouldn't feel and couldn't move it. So i threw a seraph blade at one of them and he returned to his home dimension.  I rolled out my electro whip and brandished it to the demons neck and then with a pull cut it off. The last demon wanted to run of so i was swinging back the electro whip and parted his body in two. I looked down at me and saw i had everywhere on my clothes blood and secretes of the demons and now that there was no more adrenalin i noticed the pain in my arm and pulled out my stele, drew a iratze on my arm and saw the that the wound closing in on itself. I jogged back home, still invisible for every mundie and showered again. Now that i had time to reflect on the encounter i noticed the first demon was coming directly at my and that raised the question if he knew about me being a shadowhunter even in spite of one of my runes hides all the others. That means my secret is out in the open, i can only hope i killed everyone who knew about it. When i came out of the shower i threw on a dark blue jeans and a light blue top with a black blazer. As shoes i choose my black 10cm high heels and i pinned up my hair in a ponytail with two sharp needles. I looked at my clock an the time showed 7:00 AM which is the reason i gone in the kitchen to make dod and me eggs and bacon. Like always Dod came at 7:15 AM out of her Room and to eat breakfast. “Morning Clary” , “Morning Dod” i answered her. She goes and make us both a coffee and deck in the table before we both took our seats. She looked at me and asked “You was fighting this morning, were you not?”, “ Yes in the park with six room demons” She put down her cup of coffee and looked serious at me.” You are feeling well? You would tell we when something were wrong , would you?” “ Of course Dod, i was just a little hurt on the arm but nothing a iratze couldn't heal.” the last part i added because her eyes were bigger and i knew it would reassure her that i am indeed fine. At 07:45 o'clock i gone in my room and fetched my bag to go to work. I said goodbye and told Dod i would meet up with Simon in the evening before i left the loft again. On the way to work i was in deep thought till i saw the building where i work which is called "international Design Firms Pentagram". I welcomed the bouncer and with my personal key card i became access to my büro were i immediately started to work. At 12:00 o'clock i took a break and meet up with simon who i hugged. “Hey Clary do you know that my boss was saying that my new comic was the hammer and be said when i continue with my good work i will become a raise.” “Thats cool Simon i'm so happy with you i really like to have a look at it !” “Yes of course, but do you know why the intern is staring at you?” “What ?” i asked and turned my body to look at the intern. And really the boy was looking directly at me but the problem was the intern was clearly a fairy. Which means i must ley low and avoid him. But my plans to avoid the intern was distroid when 30 minuten in work my boss came in my büro and brought him with. “ And this Kieran, is our best grafik designerin Clarissa Fray.” I didnt let it show but the fact his name was Kieran let me know that before me is standing the fairy prince and that means nothing good. My boss then addressed me “Clarissa, Kiran will from now on be with you till his internship ends.” He smiled at me which i returned. When my boss was gone i asked Kiran to go and fetch a chair and to pay attention. “Miss Clarissa Fray, i am here of the command from my father the fairy king” I turned my body so i was facing him and declined my head to tell him to go on. “My father want to speak with you” And why would the fairykind wanted to speak with me?” i asked the fairy. “It is because of the encounter with the demons today morning in the Central Park and he does not tolerate a no and because of his wish i have a present for you” He put a box on my table from which i knew its content. It is a leaf which allowed me to celebrate and to dine with the fairies. “On Saturday we have a party and we look forward to seeing you there Miss Fray” with that the fairy vanished and i hoped my boss wouldn't ask me about him. At 16:00 PM i ended my day of work and packt the fairy present in my bag. Like every day i gone in my and Simons favorite cafe the Java Jones. Simon was already waiting with a coffee and a Biscuit for me. He knew me too good he was always on my side since i am living in New York. We talked about our workday till Simon came to the conclusion that his success in his comic is a reason to celebrate. “Let us go to the Pandemonium “ I decline my head because i knew that it was a place for Mundies and people of the Shadow world. But we were there before and nothing happened even if i am always nervous that somebody will came to know about me. I told Simon that before we go we must change our clothes his response was laughing. We arranged to meet in one hour in front of the Pandemonium. At the loft i gone in my room and Changed. I decided on a black dress which ends on my thigh and one of my leder jackets. In my black Pomps i hided my stele. Above my tight i bound a blade and on my arm was my electro whip. My curly hair i let fall on my shoulders and on my chain there is a red Rubin which is a Sensor and my familie ring is like always turned around on my finger. And i asked myself again why i cant pull of the ring. The Morningstar ring. The ring and my blade Eosphoros are the only thinks i have left of my life as a Morningstar and at the same time the only thinks which would be able to Identify myself as a Morningstar.

I meet up with Simon in front of Pandemonium and like always lightened his eyes when his eyes falls on me. I knew from Simons feelings for me but he doesn't know that. But i can't tell him that i didn't feel the same and that he will always be my best friend and nothing more. We waited in line for 20 minutes before we were let in. At first we were going on the bar. Like always Simon ordered one Sex on the Beach and i decided to order a Cosmopolitan. We were going to a corner of the club in which were standing couches. We sat down and i looked threw the club. Momentary i saw three shadowhunters who were most likely at my age and to members of my Father which i would observe over the evening. I also saw ten demons by who i hoped there attention would be on the other shadowhunters. Simon leaded me on the dancefloor and to my displeasure many eyes were on me. By my father dance was a compulsory . During my dancing i again looked around. The tree shadowhunters which i think are from the New York Institut had just finished the last demon. The members of my Father looked unfortunately directly to me. I pulled Simon from the Dancefloor and the next moment Simon became limp. Thanks to my quick reflexes i was able to catch Simon before he could land on the ground and i lay him on one couch. There i looked at him and saw Vampire biss marks. During my examining of Simon i could feel many eyes on me. I knew Simon would awake in time so i turned around and looked in the eyes of the onlooker. There were more than i thought than i had the attention of the whole club. I noticed that i became angrier and angrier and asked in a low voice which one of the vampires was the one who had bitten my friend. Apparently my eyes were black and one could see the anger behind them because i saw fright in many faces. One little female Vampire were pushed to the front and i could tell she was afraid. I noticed that the Shadowhunters from the New Yorker institute closer to me, they probably thought i were a demon because of my eyes. But for now i didn't give them my mind instead i were going to the Vampire and asked her name. “My name is lara and i am member of Raphael Santiago's clan” “Listen closely little vampire you do not know who i am but that's your only warning do not cross me again!” I again turned around to go back to Simon when the Vampire attack. My Reaktion was immediately,  i pulled out a seraph blade and named her Jerahmeel turned again and sticked it threw her heart, her dead was instantly. The shadowhunters were shocked and i knew why. They thought i am an Mundie with the sight who could use seraph blades which only shadowhunters are able to, have no runes and demon eyes. The two members of my father were able to make Valentine happy because they found his daughter which was thought to be dead. Bevor somebody came back from there shock i was by Simons side, pulled him in my arms and was out of the Pandemonium. I brought Simon back to my loft and told Dod what happened who informed Magnus and than looked at Simon who i had laid on the living room couch.

I knew my life would never be the same.