sweet sin (the devil all the time)

8. diner

I hugged leonora back "see you guys later" i opened the car door and slid out waving before shutting it again

I unlocked the front door and came in "slone" my fathers commanding voice came from the dining room

"Yes sir" i looked inside

"Where the hell have you been?" He snapped standing up fast, his chair falling to the floor

I swallowed hard "slept over"

"You better not be lying to me girl" he grabbed my face tightly, i clenched my jaw "are you whoring around with one of them boys?" He snapped slamming me against the door frame

I closed my eyes tightly hearing the ringing in my ears "n-no sir" i tried to keep my voice from breaking, im not going to cry i wont give him the satisfaction

He scoffed "like hell your not" he used his grip on my face to pull me to the ground hitting my hip hard "have you prayed today?"

I didnt respond, i narrowed my eyes at the painting of a vase on the wall, he grabbed a handful of my hair pulling my head back roughly "answer me!" He snapped

"Yes sir" i still didnt meet his eyes, i focused on the white tshirt he was wearing

"Again you better not be lying to me girl" he let my hair go, i swallowed hard trying my hardest to focus on something other then crying

My father grabbed my hair again tugging my head back, he crouched down infront of me "what the hell is wrong with you slone honestly?"

I swallowed hard looking beside me "i really wish you werent here, my life would be alot" he picked me up by hair and shoved me back against the wall making me hit my head again "alot more easy" he shook his head at me "go get ready for church" he pointed toward the stairs

I stumbled a bit trying to keep my steps steady and straight, my eyes kept going blurry as i walked, i got to the top of the steps and went into my room shutting the door "fuck you" tears spilled over because if the ringing my ears "fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!" I screamed in a whisper throwing a book at a mirror across the room watching it shatter

"What was that!" My father yelled

"Nothing sir!" I yelled back, i ran a hand through my hair and slumped down my door wiping my tears, what the hell is wrong with you

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"Where are you going?" My father whispered through a smile as people filed into the church

"Water" i lied knowing he had a case in the back of his car, he nodded, i stepped around people their voices were overwhelming i just needed everything to stop for a second

I sat on the bench beside the church digging the bottom part of my plams into my eyes, "hey" i heard arvins voice, i jumped "i really dont wanna talk to anyone right now" i said quickly

He nodded "okay" he sat down beside me

"Dont agree with me" i snapped putting my hand on my forehead

"Then its not okay" he sat down beside me putting his arm on the back of the bench

It fell silent for about 30 seconds "can you stop breathing so loud" i snapped standing up

He looked at me in surprise "sorry" he apologized

I stared pacing "why are you even out here?" I snapped digging my nails in my arms

"Because your my friend...slone whats wrong?" He watched me pace

"Nothing, everything, i dont know and thats the fucking problem right there" i snapped turning to look at him "feel better knowing?" I tilted my head running my tongue over my teeth