Spinning in my head
"People wish that I was dead"
Listening to the lies I've fed
I don't believe the words you've said
Thinking that what you've said is not what you meant
Screaming in pain and agony
Probably getting worked up over nothing
Loathing that I feel crazy
I wish I could stop spiraling
Tears just keeps on falling
Seriously in need of help
Parents don't understand the pain I've dealt
Losing patience and myself
I tried to reach out and failed
They all ignore my shouts but claim that they "mean well"
Sure enough the feeling fades
Postponing all of my pain
Lying on a bunch of spades
I don't feel a single thing
The mind finally stops to race
Separating myself
People say they want to help
Losing belief that they mean well
Ignored me when I tried to yell
Then try to pick me up after I fell
Spouting a bunch of lies
Pushing me until I cry
Love me until I die?
I've heard that many times
That won't stop me from saying goodbye
Showering me with love
Pleading me to not move on
Listing reasons why you're enough
I can't control my mind, what's done is done
That's when I start to run
Sorry that this keeps happening
Pushing and pulling, pushing and pulling
Longing for the day the cycle stops cycling
I go from drowning to flying
To flying to drowning
Saying sorry doesn't fix my brain
Probably will never be sane
Losing everyone and everything
It sucks and it's frustrating
That's what it's like to live with bpd
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The One Sided Love Between A Sheep And A Wolf
PoetryThis book shows what it's like in the eyes of a bpder (someone that has bpd), their symptoms tend to worsen when in a relationship. Tw: mentions of blood, self harm, and gore
