poetry

fake love

i don't love you like i used to, nor am i sure i ever did. i know i wrote so much about you, but now i don't know. i don't get as excited to talk to you. i don't get nervous around you. i don't blush and smile way too hard when i hear your name. the way you say 'i love you' just doesn't have the same effect as it used to. you don't give me the same feeling you used to. i don't feel that spark anymore. it's as if someone poured water on it and put it out. it diminished. i don't feel the same love as i did. i think it was just a crush; a one time thing. i'm not sure i loved you at all honestly. i think i was just caught up in the thought of love and having someone to love. just the thought of being able to hold someone was intriguing. i wanted to be able to kiss and hug someone whenever i wanted. i wanted to be able to call someone mine. it was the thought of not having someone of my own. that's all it was. it wasn't real like i thought it was. it was a one time thing; a phase. i'm not that into you.

it was all fake  //