SHORT STORIES

The Calling

Autumn, my favorite season of all. The old leafs fall from the threes to give place to the young fresh ones on Spring, I feel like is kind of a renovation, a time to change and grow a new person again. This year is a little different, is too cold, and the crunchy leafs are not crunchy because it keeps raining and I can't enjoy my walks because I can't go out without freezing and getting soaked.

Aiden says I should have being named Autumn instead of Lilith, but I like my name a lot, I think I can relate to the meaning, I like the night sky more than I like it bright and clear blue, I love to see the stars, and the moon. The moon is beautiful and always speaks to me, I can listen to her, she calls me, thats why I love night, because I can talk to the moon.

Right now, I'm sitting in my room, looking outside, hating the rain because it ruins my night walks, I love rain, but not at night, I enjoy dancing in the rain, getting all soaked. And on any other season I love thunderstorms, I love the sound they make, the lightings striking all over the world never landing on the same place twice. It's majestic. But autumn is not the time for the rain to show, because I hate it. But enough about my hate. 

The reason I love night walks is because I can be myself, I feel completely free, no one sees me I become one with the night, its amazing, although I have to be careful, because sometimes I get careless and I can't control myself, its like I am someone else, is not Lilith anymore who inhabits in my body. I must confess I love when I get reckless, it gives me life. But I made a mess the last time.

 I hurt someone very important to me, it wasn't my intention, but I let the moon controlled me. I let her get to me, telling me about the woods, about how I can be happy there instead at my home. I tried going there once, it didn't end well, I got caught up by the people who claims to love me, and put me back home, I hate it here, I feel trapped, I can't do anything I want, I have to follow rules, to be what they want me to be. 

The only reason I call it home, it's because there is just one person I love that is here with me almost everyday, it's my brother, Aiden, he knows everything, about my night walks, about me talking to the moon; my parents don't care, they say I'm crazy and they're never here because of work or another thing, there's always an excuse. But the minute I want to run away they're always here to stop it, ironically, isn't it?

I don't want to live here anymore, I'll start planning my way out, but I have to be patient, careful and ready to face it all. I will listen the moon for once, actually listen to her, hear the whispering and follow it. I will go alone this time so I don't hurt anyone. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it.

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Two months have gone by, it's the exact same routine everyday, I'm almost alone all the time, except when Aiden visits sometimes, he always comes with gifts, mostly paint, or books, or food. My parents are always busy, and they are barely here. I decided last week that I'll scape today, it is still autumn, although it's almost over, I still have time to enjoy my night walks, when they allow me too. I've been super nice and in extremely good behavior, so they won't deny me when I ask if I can have one more night walk before autumn ends, and even if they do deny me, I have a backup plan to get out.

It's not raining today, so that is a good sign that I must go today. It's early in the morning and I know for sure that my parents aren't home so I approached to my other guardian, she's and old lady, so sweet, I really love her, I think she understands me at some level, but I'm not sure if it's my mind playing tricks like always or if she really does get me.