Dark passion

messed up thought

Messed up thought

Messed up thoughts running through my head
Emotions that exist but can't be explained
Is it numbness or vein
Am I happy or in pain
Sad or in grief
Depressed or in enormous agony
Confusion is what am in
The future is blurry, the path I would probably take
Although I don't know the final destination
I know we'll all end up a bead, putten in a casket
 But life is about ups n downs
The fight u put on the ring.

There is no right or wrong in this game called life
Just striving for unlimited wants
Talking and laughing...anger and sadness all the time
Though...who am I? Another question running through my mind
Who are you?

Who are we? Asked my soul to my heart, brain, and body
Doubtfulness about all
Am classified into four(4)
My heart, body, mind, and soul
Emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual norms
They all once lived in harmony for long
But everything changed, everything went rogue.

Classified into many everyone striking me with there own thoughts
Throwing at me every crisis the whole
Messed up?

 Yes sure I am
Every day is a survival quest I have to face up
Trying to find inner peace, trying to find that's so long lost hope
Trying to find me in this meaningless world, with senseless aspiration
Of hope.

Yes I am messed up
Messed up as it could get
So don't try to save me
Or try to tell me there are better days
Because it's getting worse as time goes by

First I lost me and know this  I think am losing life
I'm losing myself to chaos. I'm losing my hope in the unaltered change.

And that's the only life I have known
Yes, I'm messed up.
Don't ask why or how
Just know this I'm too
Messed up to love someone as pure
As the light would go.

I'm messed up
And there is no way out.
Only unwanted as long as life exists
Aren't we all.
At some point, we all know one of us is
a mess.
And that one would be me.
I'm messed up.

Yes, I'm a mess!
And this was my messed up thought.
                         ~BeNelly~