behind that strong fist were trembling fingers
fingers that wished to point to others but never did
because she has tried to fit into many different shoes
shoes that burned and shoes with soles made of thorns
she tried to fathom every layer of their complex emotion
accepted every flaw and made excuses for every mistake
but she forgot that empathy could be a fatal disease
because now her heart is silently crumbling in agony
and she could no longer bear the pain of being considerate
of simply forgiving when they never apologized
the memory is making her go through sleepless nights
she wanted to escape from the endless loop of guilt
and for once, she wanted to put herself first
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