darling • c.h. [bk 1]

epilogue

Dear darling

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I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I say it too often, yet not enough Cal

I'm so terribly sorry

It's all my fault

I made you sad

I hear you cry at night

Even when you think I'm asleep or not listening

I am

I always have been

You ask the sky why life has become so hard

Why it has become too much to bare

And I realize that when you say the words, I know exactly why you're like that

It's because of me

It always has been

It probably wasn't your smartest move to date a girl you met in therapy

Because it ends like this

With no happy ending

Because in reality, there is no happy endings

I'm going to miss you but we both know this is for the best

So I guess this is me leaving

At 3 am

Without saying goodbye

Writing a letter you'll probably never find

I'll kiss you forehead and squeeze your hand just slightly

Because even though I know you'll miss me

You'll move on

I know you will

I, on the other hand

Will not

Because you are forever my darling

Even when I will no longer be yours

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never yet forever your darling - nicole