Regrets

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They can't wear the mask for too long. Give them time, they'd reveal their real identity

I've not being myself recently, I simply just don't care anymore, I don't go out anymore, I don't see anyone or talk to anyone. It is the holidays and everyone at home went for vacation excluding me, mom and Zuliey tried convincing me but I didn't give in and I had promised them that I'd be fine. So it's just me and the house for three weeks, I've been counting days till they'd be back but I'm getting used to their absence and I'm beginning to enjoy my company. People talked me to accept myself the way I am and that is what I'm doing right now, I'd eat whatever I like. I should probably cook pasta or never mind I'm rewarding me a box of pizza for being awesome. I had a quick shower and set off to the road, my house is a bit far from the road so I'd have to walk it like I always do, I'm only halfway from the road and I'm already sweating not mentioning the high pace of my heartbeat. What could be possibly be going on? I thought to myself
On getting to the road my breathing was almost impossible, I know I haven't exercised in a while but that should have nothing to do with this. I took a cab and my ride was enjoyably silent even though I had to share with a man, I feel his eyes burying a hole at the side of my head and I couldn't look at him, I was beginning to feel uncomfortable and I had to let him stop doing what he's doing with his eyes, I turned my head slowly towards his direction and I saw he's way younger than I thought making me even more uncomfortable. I just stared him down with an awkward smile but he still wouldn't stop staring
"Ehem!" I said loud with my hand cupping my mouth, alas he is still staring. In my mind I started counting one to ten and if he doesn't stop staring I'd talk to him. 9,8,7,6,5,4

"Excuse me?" A voice beside me called

"Yes?" I said more with an attitude

"I think you dropped this" he said handing me my phone

"Ohh! Thank you" I collected and wiped the phone

"Mention not, I'm Kabeer" he said pointing his hand out making me stare at his hand and his face and his hand again. "Oh never mind I was only kidding" he said with a chuckle

Awwn his laugh is cute, I thought to myself.
"I'm Salima" I said looking away

"Salima! Lovely meeting you. I think... You're beautiful" he said

"Th...thank you" I said quietly

"Do you stay around here?"

Oh no, not again, he wants to keep in touch, he seems friendly now but I know his type, one day he'd ask me on a date later on he'd have a space in my heart and when he's sure that I love him, he'd breakup using my weight as an excuse, leaving me heartbroken again. I shouldn't talk to him, I should just ignore him, oh no I'd feel like a bad person, I should just let him know that I don't want to be his friend
"I'm sorry but please can we stop the chitchat and be the cab strangers we are" I said looking at my fingers

"Ohh I'm so sorry if I make you feel uncomfortable, I was only trying to be friendly" he said sadly

"No you don't have to be sorry, it's not your fault it's just me" I said looking at him for the second time throughout our ride, he has taken off his hat and I could swear that I am staring at a Greek god right now, it was getting awkward and I had to look away immediately "Oh this is my stop, it was nice talking to you"

"Can I at least have your number?" He asked a loud, I walked as fast as my feet could carry me "Any IGs? Handles? Please just your email address" he called after me and I only ignored

"Can I have a box of pepperoni pizza please?" I ordered

"Do you mean a slice?" The girl questioned me from across the counter, only after staring me up and down

"Didn't you hear the first time?" I asked with an attitude, folding my arms

"Sorry oh! I was only looking out for you, you girls always complain about weight but you don't mind what goes down your throat" she said a loud causing unwanted attention

"I don't think I'm one of those girls, did I ask about your opinion? Why don't you just mind how to run your business?" I asked "You know what? You make me sick, you can eat your pizza, I might just puke having a bite" I said leaving the shop. Everyone kept staring as I rushed down the street to get a cab and they were all giving me the judging look. I haven't looked myself in the mirror for a while but I know some part of me kept jiggling, I don't know what I look like right now but I don't think I'd like what I'd see. I'm pretty sure my thoughts are loud, because I kept walking with no clue of where I was going until I heard the screeching of tyres and a loud horn, BEEP!
Watch where you're going fatty!
I turned around and to my shock and surprise, Lamin was staring me right in the eyes.
"Ma...Mahmud?" I gasped

"Well hello there" he said with a grin










So sorry this took forever, Ramadan was tight for me. Eid-el-fitr was five days a go, well happy eid all along. Sorry this chapter is whack, I'm kind of running out of ideas. Have a wonderful weekend! Hauwer loves you.

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