RETURN MY LOVE PLEASE

37

"Gon.  I'm scared.  You'll leave me without marrying me and me having your baby.  "

"Shit! Stop thinking about it Gon! "

I slumped my body on the bed and tried to suffocate myself for thinking about it again.

What if Retz is really going to get pregnant and I'm the Father?  And I left and then my son or daughter will never gonna get to know his father and then he'll gonna find me.  Just like what happened to me?

Aaagggh!  Please please please don't happen please.  What will Killua think of me if he knows that I got a girl pregnant? 

Stop thinking about it now Gon. When Retz didn't came into your life you were just fine! Finding Killua is your only problem, when Retz entered your life your time for finding Killua have gotten less you're always accompanying Retz. So stop it okay?  Killua is your priority not her.

But what if!?

Agghh!

I should really stop thinking about it.

I'm just going to sleep for now and spent my last day here tomorrow finding Killua alone. I'm not doing anything else but to find him only.

(Retz's POV) 

No.  No.  No.  No.

I've been walking back n forth inside my room for two hours now.

"Retz!  The fuck why did you told him to go away?! " I jumped for three times and pinched myself.

You really have to work on your temper!!!

My plan failed!

It failed because you're a failure Retz!

It failed because it's fake you idiot!

Nothing really happened to us after I drugged Gon. I can't get him do it to me cause he fell asleep and he didn't get hard! I didn't know he can't take just little alcohol. I'm a heavy drinker but no one knows it because I can't let Auntie know it,  I can take 20 glasses of alcohol and I'm still sober.
So I just get him home and just stripped him and me and act like something happened.

Dammit mission failed!

Dammit I have to get Gon back!!!

I don't want to lose him.

I'll explain-No!

No I'm not going to tell him he'll hate me if he'll know.  I can't make him hate me.  I can't lose Gon! He's my true love! 

I'll just apologize for over reacting.  I'm sure he didn't mean it.

I've found my true love yet I made him go away!

I have to find him!

I have to find him!

(Killua's POV) 
*morning*

I was strolling out for a walk early in the morning.  I woke up so early today I don't know why.  I feel so light.  I feel happy. I actually had a dream about Gon and it feels so real that I woke up calling his name and saying that he should make pancakes cause I crave for some.

I miss Gon's pancakes.  It's delicious. He's actually a great cook he's actually good at anything. 

Hmm don't know if he's good when it comes to doing things too.

After walking and feeling the morning breeze I found a picnic blanket under a tree and a basket. 

Why is there no person there? 

I got near and looked at my left to right.

It's so early there are no one in this area except for me.

Hmm maybe it's from yesterday.  I crouched to see the basket and yeah I was right. 

I know this is weird but this blanket somehow smells like Gon. Or am I imagining things again? How can a blanket from yesterday smells like Gon? 

I don't know.

I sat down and put my hands behind me.

The sunrise just came up.

It hurts my eyes but I still look at it.

I feel like I want to run right now and meet Gon. I feel like Gon is near and I know where he is but I really don't know.

"hmmmmm" I let the wind brush my whole body.  My hair swayed and I feel good.

Do you know that feeling that it's so complete that you just wanna sing?

I feel that right now and I wanna sing.
That dream changes everything.

Gon proposed to me!!

Aaaaaaghh!  Oh my god!!

I can't think of it again if someone sees me right now smiling like this they would think I've gone crazy!

Alright I'm going to sing. 

"Hhaaaahm! *clears throat"

( Take me to your heart by MLTR)

"Take me to your HEART, take me to your soul!

Give me your hand before I'm ooooooold!

Show me what love is, haven't got a CLUE!!!

Show me that wonders can be true!!!!!!

They say nothing lasts FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

We're only here todaaaay!!

Love is now or never!!!

Bring me FAR AWAY!! "

I sang up to my hearts content

"Ahh"

*sigh*

That felt incredibly amazing.

But..

It's still just a dream.