Devastated no more
Decimated no more
Neither shocked or dismayed
At the core
For I have become closed
As a vault
And numb
To this anymore
Or in anyway
Shape or form
So I am over it
And done
For it was painful and never fun
For too much of this
Rocked me to the core
But no more
And angry with self
For allowing such self sabotage
And letting people
Get away with murder
But unable to truly blame
Anyone else
Too much emotion
But before not enough
Too much talking
But when I kept silent and uncaring
Unrelenting
Then told I was too quiet and felt rough
And altered myself to the point
That I ended up
And wind up
Completely out of touch
And out of sorts
With myself
And what I always stood for
No matter what
Or who I was around
Flying high and never feeling down
Because I would move on
Like clockwork
Like it was nothing
And would operate at a level
At all times like a swiss watch
Logical and intelligent
Classy but also hardened
Focused on myself and functioning
At an optimal level
As opposed to talking about feelings
And wrapped up in emotions
With poisonous people
That tend to change with the seasons
And back and forth like the oceans
As I
Never swayed or strayed away
From this and more
Not one night or day
For I would never open the door
Or be someone's doormat ever
Lying on the floor
All done to help or aid
Someone else to feel better about
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The Aftermath
PoetryJust wanted to get some heavy things off of my mind and chest and forget all the rest. And dig down deep into my core and to let the whole world know that when it comes to being me, there is so much more. And I'm not through yet and finally giving m...