To My Heart

Chapter 4~ It's Hard

Fanaa's POV

Days past and I was not feeling okay.

What's wrong with me?

I kept asking myself this question all the time?

Everything was just fine...

Until... I saw him.

Why?

Why do I feel like I need to see him?

Why do I feel the need to have his presence around me?

I've been okay all the time then why now?..

Why should I run back to the man who didn't care?

Why should I run back to the man who even after seeing me after 4 years just left?

I shouldn't be feeling this way.

I took a week off as I couldn't concentrate at work properly.

I haven't left my bed since.

I've been crying myself to sleep and not eating.

Ugh. I'm a mess.

Suddenly my phone rang and it was Naina.

"hello?" I said in a tired voice.

If only she could be here to help me feel better.

"hey Fanaa, is everything okay?" she asks.

"no... I'm not okay... At all.." I said suddenly tears making their way to my eyes.

"hey... Please don't cry... I don't know what's the matter but I'm here okay.."

"Naina... I saw him... Ahmed he..." I couldn't finish my sentence as I was more crying.

"Fanaa... Come back" she suddenly says.

What does she mean come back?

"what are you saying?" I ask sobbing.

"Come back home"

"why should I?"

"because we need you, your friends, your family, your husb-.. I want to see my best friend face to face" she says.

Me too. I want to see you all.

But... What's stopping me?

"where am I supposed to go if I come? I can't go to him..."

"come to my place I don't mind"

"okay well..." I sniff before adding "I'm on my way".

If she really wants me to come I should do so.

Maybe I'll feel better after seeing my loved ones.

I got off my bed and got into the bathroom to take a shower.

After getting ready I didn't take a suitcase but rather a gym bag and filled it up with some clothes.

I booked a flight for 2pm on my phone.

I took my black hoodie and put it on as well as my flat shoes.

I got out of my condo locking it and I went next door knocking on it.

Tara opened surprised.

"hey you're good? Where you going? To the gym? Just as I was making cupcakes!" she said turning around.

"no Tara.." I said grabbing her arm "I'm leaving for two weeks" I said.

"yeah I know you won't be coming to work"