To My Heart

Chapter 11~ Love No Matter What

Fanaa's POV.

After meeting up with Tara and catching up on work I went to my condo.

I wanted to go there before going back to the hotel.

I went into my room and had to jump on my bed to feel it.

I missed my bed.

Why do I have this feeling of like I was soon going to leave this place forever and I need to send my farewells?

I'm not thinking of going to live back in Canada or am I?

To be honest, what Naina said was true.

I need to stop running away and face my problems.

I saw how hurt she was that I left again without saying anything.

I'm an adult, I should be responsible and act accordingly.

It's about time I go back to my family and see them from time to time.

One day... I might not see them no more.

Everyone leaves, it's true.

Although we don't like to think about it, it's a fact and a reality that tomorrow is never promised.

And I'm getting tired of it.

I'm getting tired of this feeling and grudge inside of me that isn't leaving.

This feeling that there's something missing in my life or this feeling of being alone.

I have a big family and I have people that love me but then why...?

Why at the end of the day, I feel like there's still a puzzle missing?

What is the missing puzzle?

What is the key to happiness?

What is the key to love and live?

What is it...?

What do I need to feel alive again?

Allah knows me.

And Allah will cure me.

After just laying for awhile I got up and closed the light before going out and back to the hotel.

I get there in a few minutes and as I get inside the hotel, I suddenly feel weird.

I honestly don't like hotels.

Because it brings me back old bad memories.

Although I know the truth, now it will only remind me of how stupid and careless I was.

I walked passed the giant glass which had an equal sized pool on the other side and that's when I spot Naina and Rahman.

Awe they look so cute!

They were laughing while throwing water at themselves.

I've never seen her this happy in so long and it honestly feels so great to see her this way.

I decided to not bother them and just go back to the room.

They deserve time together.

As I get close to the room, I hear laughs.

What are they doing?

I slide my hotel card into the doorknob and it opens.

I get inside without making any noise and I see them just sitting and it seemed like they were enjoying their time.